Comradeship // Freechat

So like, obviously it's fair to still be mad about the Armenian genocide or fall of the USSR. So I'm more looking for little things most people ignore but You're hung up on for one reason for another.

I.e, my salt would be

● EA buying the developer of dungeon keeper and turning it into a crappy mobile game (I know someone made their own version like the old ones but still)

●In fact actually just the fact that big studios bought up a bunch of immersive Sim IPs and then killed them, either remaking them worse of draining them of all their original charm (Deus Ex, thief, prey*

I know prey got a good remake but that was 90% unrelated to the original prey and Bethesda got that by specifically killing the company making prey despite the fact that they had a functioning product)

●Subscription services being everywhere

● JJ Abrams in general and his stupid mystery box specifically

●Disney in general, and that their live action remakes are such a hit despite being so garbage

● The really annoyingly pervasive idea that a writer is in conflict with their reader and needs to beat them/not care about them (i.e, Emil Pagliarulo's paper airplanes, Steven Moffats obession with besting the audience in his Sherlock remake, Alex Aster's obsession with trying to make sure people won't predict her twists in her Lightlark series, etc.)

●The fact that I'm always told to "just use uber" when I say I don't like having to drive when it's both stupid expensive and the company is the bane of my existence

●Philanthropy

(Yes part of this post was just me venting, sorry)

That's right, you thought this was over, but it's not!

I went to see the new hematologist yesterday. I didn't have to explain too much, she basically agreed straight away that this was not a situation I could continue to be in. To be honest back in January I was reconciled with being disabled like this for the rest of my life, but now not so much. But it's not because of anything fancy, it's just that the side effects (or rather the intolerance to the medication) is getting noticeably worse with time and who knows how much worse it'll get in 6 months, one year, or even 3 years? I can't "coast by" on this medication any longer.

She got me started on pradaxa which my previous hematologist never even mentioned. I'll be trying it out for a month and we'll see how it goes. I'm not expecting a miracle, but it works on a different coagulation factor than Xarelto and Eliquis, so maybe I'll tolerate it better. If not, there's still the old blood thinners (the anti vit K) but it's kinda like being diabetic, you have to manage it for as long as you take it which for me is probably rest of my life. I'm taking it one week at a time though, fingers crossed lol.

The new hematologist also said that my xarelto dose of 10mg a day was too low for my case and the previous doctor shouldn't have recommended that lol. IIRC we dropped to 10mg because we wanted to see if a lower dosage was more tolerable but when it was clear it didn't she shouldve told me to go back up to 20mg?? I don't know if that makes sense lol. Basically I've been on 10mg xarelto since december and after a month when we saw my tolerance didn't improve we should have gone back to 20mg but we didn't.

Oh, since she recommended a higher dosage (even confirmed with her colleague), I also asked if it was safe for me to stop taking the blood thinners for a day or so, as the previous dr said that I could elect to stop it for like a weekend if I was going somewhere that was a concern, e.g. going skiing or smth. New dr said no, don't do that lmao. Only case it would make sense to do that is if I need surgery.

Much better experience overall and she takes it seriously, but I think she also takes it seriously because I didn't ask about disability. Once you do that they put up the stop signs and change the subject. In her opinion we can do the older blood thinners no problem, which my previous hematologist said we couldn't do. I trust the new one more lmao

I really like The Clash. Their politics are decent, but their music is amazing.

Do folks have any recommendations for who else to listen to? I'm open to most genres, and found Curtis Mayfield to be probably my second favorite artist. Thanks!

I don't understand what the point of it is or how to consume it.

I have read instructions on how to make it. I can make it as well though of course I am no expert.

1. I just don't know why someone would have it over normally brewed coffee. Is the taste different? I am not the kind of person who can tell difference easily.
2. Let's say you have cold brewed a pot overnight. What do you do with it? Can you heat it before drinking it? Or do you have to drink it cold?

Thanks.

Having just finished reading The Governance of China's first volume and really taking in the fact that there's three more to read in that series alone, I truly do wish I had more time. Between going to university, wanting to consume and create art (books and video games to be specific), developing relationships, cooking, cleaning, developing political thought and of course engaging in socialist construction, theres just so much I wish to do.

I'm not saying I'm 100% productive throughout the day on all days, but I cannot imagine doing more without causing damage to some part of me. Simultaneously I start to suffer from analysis paralysis at a certain point, like trying to decide if I should read America Against America or try to delve back into Capital's three volumes. Or if I want to read some poems in the backbone flute or start Italo Calvino's invisible cities.

I'm young (although simultaneously American, so I'm unsure how long I'll actually live) but at the same time I do wish I could move at a slower pace.

hopefully i don't get called a lib for this but i have been feeling quite a bit of uncertainty when it comes to Jewish people who have been indoctrinated into Zionism and Americans , and partially people from other western nations , who have either due to economic distress or due to indoctrination joined the military . don't get me wrong both are absolutely privileged , especially those Jewish people who live in occupied Palestine , however i feel that they aren't fully responsible for their harmful beliefs . of course this doesn't excuse acting on their beliefs , but from testimonies of people who have rid themselves of those beliefs its not an easy thing to do (i have been particularly affected by Matt Leib's , of the BadHasbara podcast , comparison between fighting off his heroin addiction and his Zionism) .

they are of course not the people who are most victimised , however i feel somewhat uneasy about blaming them for not doing the work of deindoctrinating themselves , especially as , especially those who joined the American military , they are really mistreated . a lot of propaganda is explicitly about making those who benefit from the ideology maintained by it to feel unsafe , therefore , in their minds , justifying violent actions .

like this mostly matters for those who are on the path if deindoctrinating themselves , even if they themselves have not realised that yet , for example a ex military member who is struggling with trauma over actions they made in while deployed or someone who has been raised in a Israeli settlement questioning the morality of living there , beyond the usual labor Zionist stuff . i definetly don't think that , sorry for the extreme example , someone who relives pressing down the trigger of a sniper riffle and the bloody effects of what happened after , especially if they were aware then or were made aware later that the person they killed was a noncombatant , that their actions were wrong . i think that helping them towards the realisation that its a wider issue is the better option .

like this isn't very well put together but like just wanted to throw this out and have someone say if i'm not insane or just the usual over empathic stuff .

Im in the process of learning chinese. Was wondering if anyone knows good places to watch chinese content (for free hopefully) in the west with english subtitles. BilliBilli is slow where i am and i cant make an account so not ideal, but ive used it some. The piracy sites i use dont seem to have much chinese content sadly either.

No family member wished me a happy birthday tho ):

Told this is against the rules, and being downvoted, so removed.

I first joined the Brazilian Communist Party (PCB) in 2018, right after Bolsonaro's election. I had been following members of the Communist Youth League (UJC) for a few years by then, but seeing Bolsonaro win made me realise I shouldn't be waiting until I felt I was knowledgeable enough on Marxism-Leninist theory to join an organization. When PCB split in 2023, I left to join the newly formed Revolutionary Brazilian Communist Party. We've been doing a lot of good work, but I turned 30 last year and it made me thing a lot. I'm a Film graduate and I went to college because I wanted to be a screenwriter. The career path I expected before joining simply wasn't realistic: it's quite hard to get paid to write, you need to do a lot of writing in your free time and then try to sell it or get a public grant to build up your portfolio. And the time and energy I devoted to the party simply didn't allow me enough free time to write as many projects per year as I need to if I want to make in this area. I graduated 10 years ago and, since then, I have made nothing. I started seeing the names of people I studied with in the credits of movies and TV shows and it made me feel like I'm behind. I'm not feeling great about quitting. There's nothing wrong with taking a couple years to focus on yourself, but stepping away from something I dedicated myself to for long and in which I still strongly believe isn't a trivial decision. It makes me feel selfish. I'm hoping I'll be in a place where I can come back to militant work in two years or so.

Sometime between tomorrow and 26th March (different news outlets are giving different dates) the UK government are supposed to announce the cuts they're making to disability benefits. And it sounds like it's going to be really bad - they're talking about cutting UC by more than half - but only for the disabled - and making it and PIP very difficult to get. I thought that if I can just win my appeal, I'd be fine for a while. But now, while I still wait to hear about that, I'm losing all hope. If I win my appeal but benefits are slashed by this much, it's over for me. I am sitting here researching which su1c1d£ methods would be the easiest, most painless and reliable. I have one in mind, but I am still scared. I don't want to do it, but if the government make it impossible for me to live, I don't see what choice I have.

They are also talking about "encouraging" the disabled to "try" work and if it doesn't work out, they can stay on benefits. What this actually means is, being forced into work. I have already provided multiple letters from doctors saying I am unfit for any type of work, but I don't believe for a second that will be taken into account. FFS I can't even get dressed or cut my own nails without help. When I was in receipt of my benefits I used that money to do things like pay a carer to help me with this stuff, go to the podiatrist to get my nails cut (the NHS doesn't do that) and pay for extra physiotherapy sessions as the NHS only gives me one about every 6 months. Since my benefits were stopped I've had difficulty getting dressed to the point I'm inappropriately dressed as I can only get certain clothes on, I've had accidents doing this (falling over due to balance issues caused by the stroke while trying to get dressed) haven't been to the podiatrist so my nails are painfully long, haven't had physiotherapy in ages, apart from one consultation with the neurophysio recently who said there's basically nothing more they can do.

And yet none of this was enough to stop me getting my benefits stopped, so I know it won't be enough to stop them trying to force me out to work. I just can't live like this, the stress and uncertainty never ends. There is no hope of it getting any better. As soon as I wake up in the morning I feel absolute dread descend on me, knowing it's another day of fear, anxiety and misery.

EDIT: EDIT: And I've just had another awful realisation. They are saying they're going to remove some of the eligibility criteria for PIP, such as people who need help on the toilet no longer having that taken into account. This means that some people who've already been awarded PIP will suddenly lose their money, surely? If their points for certain activities no longer count, they'll find themselves below the threshold to receive help after all.

Here's why I took a long break after joining transfem.social (as per my previous post, you must be 18+ to join there) for almost four months: I was very busy with research papers, which we almost failed, but we were able to submit multiple revisions until I passed the first semester of research papers later on. Now I was reassigned to a different research group, in which their paper is focusing on community engagement, which I came back to tf.s full-time, coz I was given small tasks which are distributing surveys. I'm so very happy to make new transfem friends. Balancing my academic time would be a perfect time to go back to Fedi alongside Lemmy. I stopped playing Zenless Zone Zero because I know that there would be a repeat mistreatment of Hoyo players Genshin Impact has suffered.

Source: https://transfem.social/notes/a5fa1h3lpvwo007o

Maybe it is not unreasonable but a sober evaluation of the situation. I think the lid is gonna come off this whole thing within 30 years, that is, the relatively good living conditions of the imperial core, low to medium levels of unemployment, steady food supply, etc., and North America will see, or is already in, a years of lead situation. And I hope that should we ever have Black Hundreds or Brownshirts - which we do already - we will also have Red Guards... which we don't yet. I guess looking at the aggressive advances of the fascist movement it is more poignant than ever to say "without a people's army, the people have nothing". Gotta build a movement first, and the movement's means of self protection and force will come from that.

What is this?

What are their conditions like?

What is the people's faith in socialism?

How is the government moving towards socialism?

I need to get my groceries delivered at the moment due to my foot surgeries - I can't walk very far or wear shoes. I normally order from sainsburys and I'm so grateful to the person who sent me a sainsburys voucher, but right now there's a delivery issue with sainsburys in my local area. I don't know whether they're just booked up or having a problem but they have no delivery slots for the next 11 days and I'm almost out of food. Justeat has 5 supermarkets close to me. Would anyone send me a justeat gift card so I can order groceries for the next 11 days? There are several websites that sell them and it can be sent to my email address which is electrik83@hotmail.com

They are anonymous in that I won't see your details or know who you are unless you want to tell me. The prezzee site works worldwide:

https://www.prezzee.uk/store/just-eat-uk-gift-card/

You need a UK address for this site: https://giftcards.just-eat.co.uk/

Since I joined transfem.social (you must be 18+ to join, but it's a general instance) back in October 2024, at that time I went hiatus from Fedi to focus on my research papers, I've made a lot of transfem friends. My status of being an enby helped me empower them. I'm so very happy to rebuild my Fedi interest since February 2025.

Original post here:

https://lemmygrad.ml/post/7230030

Personally mine has to be the one in Istaravshan, Tajikistan

that's all I got to say

It's not even that it's "bad" therapy exactly. It's clearly well intentioned and thoughtful, with a lot of thought put into it, and that's a lot more than some people get from therapy if stories are any indication (and better than some other experiences I've had with it). But the part that shows up over and over again in the background is how focused it is on the individual. It sounds like it sort of makes sense at first, you are there to address your own problems, after all. But the thing is that a therapist has no solutions for what is beyond that. And the solution they often do have, in my experience, is some form of rugged individualism; be better at being you in a vacuum because you can't control others and most things are outside of your control.

Self-improvement can be a thing, I don't think that's somehow wrong. Healing from trauma can be a thing. But the most abled, neurotypical, "healthy" of individuals in western capitalist society are still dealing with a lot of bullshit from capitalism itself and its consequences. Maybe I just wish people in mental health would call attention to that. I don't expect the existing society to casually teach people how to be revolutionaries. But that doesn't make it any less frustrating when you go to get help and feel like you're being asked to either pretend a huge portion of what impacts you is not a factor, or take it like it's some kind of inevitable stress of life and just cope.

It's like this sort of "it doesn't get better out there, so you have to make it better in here" is the best way I can think to put it. Like tacitly giving up on a fundamentally better world, even if that's not the conscious intention.