Facepalm

Because they know that's the only way they might possibly get any of it. Because no one in their real life will talk to them anymore or even give a shit about them. They've pushed absolutely everyone that might have supported them away with their crazy bullshit and now all they have left is trying to get the attention of those with power to latch onto like a leech. But they can't admit that's what they're doing, so they hide behind it all like they're not the mistress to be thrown under the bus when convenient.