Looks like the downvoters are chasing you again. Must be putting in work, fuckem.

Pissed off somebody with an alt account doing some hardcore gaslighing/copaganda.

Got reaaaallly mad when the concept of 'abusive relationship' being a bigger circle that contains 'domestic violence' within it came up.

Also got pissed when I told them their 'counter citation' from the fucking Polygraph Institute was bullshit on its face, as actual sciencr has shown repeatedly that all polygraphs do is show stress, nervousness... not truth at all, as someone may be able to calm down and lie, or tell the truth while having a mini panic attack due to trauma.

As to gaming... hey I mean, stick with your comfy with if thats what your comfy with, was just giving some suggestions if maybe you wanted a change of pace.

(I have my own barely substantiated theories about how you can psych profile people based on their favorite games and play time lol, but I'm pretty sure no one has ever done a publically released study on that... on the other hand, larger tech firms almost certainly have, and then cross reffed it with the social media data either from their own platforms or that they paid for)

To music: guitar and sax eh? Can't say I've heard of that combo in one person before, but yeah... with bass, I'm the same in that I just am not that good at improvising.

However, I think I could learn some actual music theory, and then understand whats ... actually going on, the rules the game is played by, and then be able to do it just a bit.

But... I can improvise on a harmonica, and while singing. I'm a decent baritone, and picked up a harmonica one day and it just... clicked. I cannot explain it at all.

Unfortinately, my computer, my bass... everything is all gone now, yay idiot family + more bad luck = me homeless for 2 years.

Gotta get my body in decent working order before trying to tackle anything else, so I am just doing that.

As for autists in the BDSM community:

To me the explanation is very, very simple.

BDSM communities have rules. Explicit rules.

Autists have sex drives just like anyone else, but ... most people are too inconsistent and hypocritical to even have a normal relationship with, much less a romantic one, that isn't plauged with a hypercharged version of miscommunication, as compared to neurotypical relationships.

I am at the point now where I would pretty much only consider a long term relationship with another autist.

But anyways, yeah, BDSM has rules. Autists like it very much when the rules are explicit and hard, not suggested and wiggly depending on a million other possible variables that will all be significantly different for every single person.

Autists also tend to be more curious. Try anything once that isn't likely to seriously harm you, kind of curious. More accepting of other weird things so long as they don't harm people.

At least thats my experience as an Autist and with the couple of other high functioning autists I've known.

So for me... that all translates into: Make a video game.

The rules are complex, but hard, and objective.

Making a compelling ruleset, game world... that allows for creativity, rewards multiple play styles, encourages experimentation, has a complex dynamic world or at least gameplay, that can generate emergent conflicts or opportunities...

Thats what I'd like to do.

I've got a whole bunch of scrib notes of various elements of... well really, either many games, or a very, very complex game, to the point that my problem now is paring them down into essentially a minimum viable product, a base concept that is simple enough that I could actually implement it, create it, as a solo dev, in a way that wouldn't take 5 years.

At some point, I'll probably need to contract out some modelling and artist work, but I want to have a working model first... so far, still can't start it due to being in too much pain, wrist seizes up too quickly... but its improving everyday, a little bit.

Step by step.