The worst thing for me is to feel like I'm insane because of my feeling about a thing not aligning with how it should with regards to my understanding of things. That right there is what would make me feel unsafe in my own hands.

Imagine you cut yourself and it feels like a goddamn orgasm. Do you do it again? That's not the question. The question is what else is backwards in my brain and how can I ever feel safe?

How do I know if someone else is ripping me off of I can't measure value? How can I know what conditions are comfortable if my feeling is off?

Choice theory is pretty important to me. I'm currently being ripped off by my employer and employers everywhere are all doing the same thing because people in my category are mollified. We're not doing anything about it because it's easier to let someone else take the fall individually. We should have some kind of inherent feeling to help us all gauge what's fair to react to and what shouldn't be. Do you let the thing slide and suffer for it, or do you fight back and suffer for it? The suffering imposed in both situations is certainly being measured by those who are controlling us financially.