Don't discount yourself. I'm dumb as shit. There's a lot of dumb programmers. We just know a handful of things and kept beating our heads at it until suddenly, it works.

Keep picking up things every year and after a few years, suddenly you know more than others and they keep promoting you.

I just know how to use search engines and follow instructions written by people smarter than me.

99% of being a programmer is knowing what to Google, so you're halfway there.

Everyone is overwhelmed when learning to program or even learning a new framework. This is normal. We just do our best to ignore that feeling and keep going. You will often fail and sometimes spend hours wondering why something doesn't work. But eventually it will become easier and you will be able to make cool things. Python and JavaScript are good languages for beginners (but choose one).

If you would like to contribute to Libre Software, there are other ways you can do it too. You can join some chat rooms for a specific project and help people when they have issues. You can help to document things or help translate stuff.

It's a lot of abstraction to ingest, keep exposing yourself to deeper topics until it becomes natural.

Learn with the help of LMMs (AI chatbots), it’s awesome, just let it generate some code, read it, understand it, and try make the code better, more beautiful and/or more efficient. Add some feature you miss in the code, don’t hesitate to ask your LMMs follow up question, it won’t laugh at stupid questions, it is just great.

Move to Silicon Valley or get hired by a Silicon Valley company that allows remote work.