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I Am Not Always Very Attached To Being Alive: Living With Passive Suicidal Ideation (theoutline.com)

submitted 4 months ago by Two9A@lemmy.world to c/longreads@sh.itjust.works

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At 27, I’ve settled into a comfortable coexistence with my suicidality. We’ve made peace, or at least a temporary accord negotiated by therapy and medication. It’s still hard sometimes, but not as hard as you might think. What makes it harder is being unable to talk about it freely: the weightiness of the confession, the impossibility of explaining that it both is and isn’t as serious as it sounds. I don’t always want to be alive. Yes, I mean it. No, you shouldn’t be afraid for me. No, I’m not in danger of killing myself right now. Yes, I really mean it.

How do you explain that?

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[–] Asafum@feddit.nl 13 points 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago) (1 children)

All life is meaningless, but that's good. You define your meaning/purpose. It's whatever you want it to be.

My issue is less with meaning and more with "God i wish I was literally anyone but me, I hate myself with the burning passion of 10000 dying suns." Lol

[–] Coelacanth@feddit.nu 9 points 4 months ago

Very relatable, as well as that notion of being "stuck here" so to speak. I'm having trouble pushing through and reaching that state of "optimistic nihilism" or whatever you want to call it, but I'm trying. And it's good to hear from others in a similar boat.