Asklemmy

Hahaha! Yo!! If this is TMI, my b! But legitimately I heard a gal say they got less play post op than pre. Cause people out here be fetishizing. I myself had to deal with some real weird ass shit my partner used to love to say about me and my ethnicity. I nipped that shit in the bud, and got her on the righteous path. She most def still has some shit to work on, but don't we all - and I love that woman like squisshhh (that's two hands on the side of the face pancaking). But yeah, I mean it's crazy the shit people have to deal with to be a "woman" so to speak. The beauty standards are off the chain. I am so unbelievably MAD lucky I got my mom's wispy allure cause my face and makeup? Never shall the two meet. But I got by okay. But man, exes of mine had to layer it on - do their hair, etc you know - just to pass. And like fuck passing, personally. But also like. Fucking passing. It's crazy because nobody wants to live their lives as a freak you know? Or at least, most people (some people wanna be freaky - that's cool). And being ostracized for something that you can tweak but ultimately have little control over is such bullshit. My ex used to say that French saying about beauty being suffering or whatever. Ugh.

But yeah, we're all just like little kids on the playground of life absolutely trying to be bigguns! It sounds funny, but I noticed it the most when I was working with the elderly. Because you just stop giving a shit about masking things when you're feeling a certain way and really there's little divide between a (bebe) -> b (grown ass adult) emotionally (at least in my opinion). It's the logic we apply that helps wrap up the loose bits. I often think about how Sandra Cisneros relates age to that of the layers of an onion. There's times when I have been brave in life, and there have been times when I absolutely shut down and doubled back to a big ol' cry baby. Especially since my body is seemingly trying to kill me =P!

But all things aside, self-acceptance isn't preached often. It is in a half-hearted way. But if you had a bunch of people who loved themselves I don't think this world would get a chance to pull of half of the things it does. And it's so important, and so easy to back-peddle on too. Such just keep loving yourself, and I think it helps it spread. And I don't mean in that Instagram way. Just you know - be yourself and go about your bits. You'll probably change more people than you know. Especially if you're trans-presenting in any way. But ALSO BE SAFE BECAUSE PEOPLE ARE ASSSHOLESSSSS!!!!

p.s. - new channel. Gunna check it out. xoxo!