Hi, I'm flying home for my birthday (moved out of state for work, then lost my job, and been unemployed for 4 months). My mom asked what I would like her to make me for my birthday dinner, and I have no clue what to ask for. I'm just at a loss because I don't know what I like. I'm not picky, but if left to my own devices would eat mueslix for months at a time. I hate feeling attention, and worst of all pity... But that is the primary feeling when I return to my mothers home. I feel lost and trapped, as more if my life falls through my fingers like a hand desperately grasping into dry sand. Everything feels wrong and I hate that I agreed to come home at all.
When you define yourself as having a problem then it means you have been fooled by the illusion of your thoughts. When you are thinking about your 'problems', you are not aware of yourself or your surroundings. Learn to live in the moment, don't let your mind dominate your life experience. Try meditation, walks in nature, learn a musical instrument, take up a martial art, exercise. Any activity that grounds you in the present experience. Cultivate this ability and your life will transform. Extend your abilities further by finding peace in the presence of others. Even a screaming child in a restaurant, it's just a sound. When you quiet your mind, you no longer judge this and that good or bad. After all, there are no ugly trees ☮️