LGBTQ+

This reminds me of myself when I was in highschool, I'm sorry you're struggling comrade. If you want to discuss any barriers to your transition I'm here with you and I may be able to help. In any case stay strong, your future is one piece of our collective future and that is worth fighting for.

I'm not familiar with queer literature in China but I think it would be pertinent to look at writers or publishing houses in and around Sichuan and mainly Chengdu as there is a big LGBT+ community there in general

Remember that medical transitioning isn’t everything. You can still be yourself, date, wear clothes that you want etc. Don’t let your body be a limit. (And hey a lot of us girls have hair everywhere)

I feel you 😢

I heard that Danmei/BL novels are rather popular in China, so take a look at that if you're interested. The only works I know of are Mo Dao Zu Shi and Tian Guan Ci Fu.

"But why did my life have to be extra hard like this?" It is only through struggle that we can come to understand ourselves and move forward into a brighter, more prosperous future. Your work might be hard, but that just proves that your struggle carries so much weight. If you get through it—figure it out—you use the tools you grow and understand to uplift others, putting them on the fast track to understanding and prosperity. That is not to disregard that what you're going through right now is very hard. I hope that you find what you need comrade. Solidarity!