his message just confuses me and I can’t stop re-reading it. It’s been a few days - almost a week soon I can’t remember, I cleared the convo because I can’t look at it but it’s on my laptop still :/ I can’t make sense out of the message.
canadianchik
I know… the body count thing is dumb but if you read my other posts you’d know why it affects me now :/ I know it doesn’t matter but now I have trauma related to telling someone my bc lol. And I know, it’s always the guys who don’t get much play that I find are always asking the weirdest questions and asking me what type of guys I slept with and their size .. cuck behavior lol
this make me cry, thank you. It’s been so hard to see things clearly. I keep asking myself if I’m really that hard to love. The main question I ask myself is “Am I really that easy to give up on?”.. I bent over backwards so much for people but I never receive it back. My heart is always shattered by the people I love the most. Regular friendships I had didn’t hurt when they decided to not speak or whatever, but the ones where I actually love the person deeply kills the fuck out of me. It it seems to always happen to me and it sucks because it takes so long for me to love someone on that level. So when it happens I just know it won’t happen for another while :/
I have no motivation anymore for so much.. it’s diminishing. School is a burden to me now, gym I don’t even wanna go. I know I get my off days and some days I feel fine than others but it’s all hitting so hard right now. It all just feels so real (which it is) and it physically makes me start heaving. I used to be in a 3 year relationship before him and I know I can heal but this hurts so much and I only known him for like 6 months ish (end of November).. it hurts so bad. I miss him so fucking much. I just wish me and him can talk about it in person because last time we didn’t speak about our feelings we just cried and he said it’s over and cried more and than laughed it off for a bit and continued crying, we stayed friends but then I decided to stop talking because I felt undervalued and it just sucks so fucking much. His last text just confused me and there’s so much answers I want
If they’re the cause or intertwined with “my shit” then they should work through it with me. A relationship is about working together when a problem comes up. I don’t expect a man to chase me for my own issues, gross. I find that a red flag as well and I wouldn’t want to be with someone if that is how my mindset it
oh grow up, i meant it as in if the relationship is going through a hard time, its always best to work together and not opt-out whenever u feel slightly overwhelmed. its being emotionally mature
hey, im 21 turning 22 in august…. and i know…i ramble too much lol
Tbh, with my last relationship I went crazy. I slept with many guys to fill the void .. I mean.. I did become numb. But I wouldn’t wanna rack up my body count more tbh. I am so touch deprived though. But in pain. So I won’t disagree with this
Trust me, the internet strangers have helped me so much in life compared to therapy and my own friends. I rlly only hang out with one girl but to be honest, I don’t feel like she’d actually there when I talk about things. I notice it’s always her agreeing to what I say but never solid truthful advice. If I said one thing she agrees, if I switch up, she agrees. It’s just not even worth talking about anymore. That’s why I come here, I’m able to speak my mind and all my thoughts with absolutely no shame and I get solid advice from so many perspectives and I love it.
I got a meet-up app that has many community events and activities/hobbies for people who wanna join but I’m a bit nervous to start conversations with people, I’m not the best at it. But I do wish I was more of a people’s person so I can attend these and have stuff to look forward to.
How does going insane look like? What do I do? I feel both right now and it hurts. It’s hurting more after the closure too
I know. The urge to text just upsets me. Like I got drunk today and all I want to do is cry in his arms because of how much pain I’m in. I want to be okay. I want me and him to be okay. I wish things were different but I know this is real life and I need to carry on. And I know I’m not a princess waiting for my savior but all I wanted in life was someone to want me and put in the effort. I never felt that growing up. The only times was from me and my ex in the years but I’m always just saddened by it.
How are you fighting the urges to text them? Do u mind me asking how you guys split?