Ask Lemmy

I use drugs without a dependence despite my history.

After a lifetime of every aspect of my being getting invalidated, and my feelings torn to shreds, I should be dead.

But I'm not. I'm even relatively sane.

That's despite my ARFID and germophobia being fake, my plurality and therianhood being delusion and conspiracy theory, and my queerhood and political standing just a lack of experience in the real world. I am fake, according to everyone. I don't know how I ended up in an alt-right family, and meeting countless alt-right vermin online, but here we are.

I'm alive, and even happy and healthy, and I still deal with this shit on a daily basis. It nags at the back of my mind, but I've become resistant to it, because of my DIY psychedelic therapy sessions (that are making me delusional, apparently).

Vivi, Despite the Planet. /ref

What isn't, right guys?

I'm not fully sure, but I think I truly despise women. But they play such a minor part in my life that it really doesn't matter for me or them.

Edit: Just to clarify. I'm 100% certain that my feelings towards women will actually never badly influence anyones personal life. In fact my and other women's lives are so far appart that excluding family, a single coworker and few store cashiers, the last time I've actually spoken to a woman face to face was a few months ago. And that was just my friends sister. Excluding that, it's been maybe a few years.

If I were to disapear it would make absolutley no diffrence in any womans life, vice versa if all women would disapear, it would barely make a difference in mine.

That's why it really doesn't matter.