Asklemmy

There's a saying you might want to get familiar with

"If everywhere you look, all you see is assholes, maybe you're the asshole."

Nope, my experience has been mostly positive.

Doctor is amazing, and when my biopsy came back negative, he said It says it is not cancer been I think it is wrong, we will reorder the same biopsy. He was right.

Got pulled over for doing a Uturn to help a stray animal. Cop reviewsed my driving record and recognized I had zero infractions, so gave me the website link to research Uturn rules in an Industrial zone rather than a ticket.

Had some great teachers. One was a great mentor and we stayed in touch with over the years. One teacher volunteered to stay after school when admin said our Dungeons and Dragons club had to have a staff member involved.

Everyone's experience may differ

you're mostly identifying quirks of capitalism. you need dialectical materialism. cops and judges are straight up agents of capital and are the arm of the state which exerts its monopoly on violence. they are more or less all bad people by definition and your enemies. doctors under capitalism act as gatekeepers of live saving medical care and profit off people's need for it. also usually from privileged backgrounds so lacking empathy and likely your class enemy if they own their own practice. another unsavoury bunch. teachers generally are better people with at least some kind of noble goals but the school system under capitalism is more akin to prison and is inherently abusive. individual teachers can't exactly change the system much from the inside so a lot of them end up perpetuating the cycle of it.

i think that people make judgements and act upon those judgements based on a category or type that's familiar to them and i also think that's goes at least doubly so for anyone that has to serve the public for their livelihoods.

people see me as a type when i put no effort in and i didn't realize that until i got my neuro divergence assessment results and fully embraced the "fakeness" that my social butterfly mother taught me as a child.

i resisted it for decades because i also felt like the doctors were just chasing a paycheck and the proctors where just going through the motions and i regret the years i wasted the despite bad experiences with several of doctors & proctors.

i've since learned that no one has your best interests at heart except maybe family or friends. it's very cliche and it's very true and i hate that i have to forge and create my own world despite that knowledge underpinning it.

i hope you figure it out something that works for you; it sounds like you're in a bad place rn based on your posts and i think that this is the only way i can help.

You got sentenced because a tree branch fell and damaged a fence? Sentenced to what? By whom?

I've had mostly terrible interactions with doctors, including them trying me on random SSRIs for nearly a decade before they ran out of options and agreed to try ADHD meds.

I did have one REALLY good interaction with a guy at a walk-in clinic though. Felt my knee while I bent it and told me imaging wasn't necessary because he could feel the tear. Multiple years of false answers and physical therapy that went nowhere and then I got lucky enough to have a doctor who had the same kind of tear and knew what he was doing.