SadArtemis

joined 9 months ago
[–] SadArtemis@hexbear.net 10 points 6 months ago

New year (and more specifically I returned home from visiting fam) and... I guess I gotta live again, and by that I mean do productive things (not that visiting fam was bad- it was wonderful, helped my mom cook a lot and just connected with siblings idk) and get my life on track as well as to a point where I could actually have some sort of notion of self worth.

I guess tomorrow and onwards will be the turning point (or it won't, but it has to be). I guess today wasn't so bad either in terms of doing some things for myself. Ought to leverage my siblings (sis could also use help really) for assistance in keeping up motivation (or having any) I guess.

Today I had a weird dream, I basically almost never dream (or at least don't remember them) but in this dream let's just say I looked somewhat different in the mirror and wasn't dysphoric and was going waow-based even in the dream. Sucks to have to wake up from that tbh, optimistic ish but don't trust myself to see it through properly. lea-dysphoric I guess I also just have severe issues of self-doubt and self-sabotage historically, been thinking of that lately (well always)

I.. I dunno, compared to previous times I'm more defeated, not running on fumes and hot air as much as before and more.. wise(?) I guess, while trying to pick myself up. But I know myself and tbh the honest truth is I just kinda have a really messed up (limbic system, lack of self worth and motivation, learned helplessness etc). How am I supposed to trust that?

[–] SadArtemis@hexbear.net 6 points 6 months ago* (last edited 6 months ago) (1 children)

cuddle mood... Not really much to contribute but I can relate almost 100%.

Being NEET and depressed has to be the biggest bulk of it in my case, though. Hard to be sexual when I'm dissociating from my physical body (still alive and doing my stuff but not really feeling it) and needs on some considerable level 24/7.

[–] SadArtemis@hexbear.net 14 points 6 months ago

Fingers crossed, and hopefully Canada will be too busy thinking of Trump's impending invasion for the next likely PM (Poilievre) to do the same as well.

[–] SadArtemis@hexbear.net 5 points 6 months ago

While I don't have this issue, sometimes I just use (a long tweezer I then wash) to scrape my tongue (with the blunt, long side) instead. Maybe that can help? I also brush my tongue interchangeably, but this way is presumably less gag-inducing (and faster somewhat).

[–] SadArtemis@hexbear.net 5 points 6 months ago

Yes, but be brave!! You can do it... maya-devious

[–] SadArtemis@hexbear.net 6 points 6 months ago
[–] SadArtemis@hexbear.net 12 points 6 months ago

Here's to hoping indeed :x

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I don't quite know how to comfort the best but wanted to at least say I read this and I'm rooting for you in the next year... there'll be better, and you deserve infinitely better...

[–] SadArtemis@hexbear.net 7 points 6 months ago

Rooibos is nice, it's basically my standard go-to niko-happy

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