no and it's ALL googles fault. It's not a walled garden problem, It's a google problem. I'm searching for specific items to buy and look for small shops with online presences. Google will NOT give me results for shops that don't advertise with them. I can even type the name of the shop into the search. Sometimes Bing, sometimes duck duck go will give the results.
I can have the site open in one window and use another to type the description of an item I am looking at AND the name of the site I am searching on google and it's like 'Nope' never heard of them. i have to type the url in to the search bar then it will return a link.
Now sponsored links pop up a plenty.
We are the product being sold to advertisers. Search is working as intended.
Your life, physical and then professional were both threatened. The things you mentioned aren't little oopsies. These are well beyond normal. You describe being assaulted and abused. Those aren't suck it up and learn situations. That isn't a regular kind of problem. You should seek trauma counseling.