Probably just not very nice and self absorbed

me_irl

First week it made me feel like there was a very light electric current running through my body. Not unpleasant, just a bit odd. Tingly. And yawning uncontrollably for a few hours after taking them for a few weeks.

Again, not unpleasant. But I absolutely embraced them, I did not fight the effects. I was very, very glad to try medications.

Now, after like 4 or 5 years, I can clearly tell the difference between before and after - the difference is, instead of downward spiralling into a hideous pit that I couldn't climb out of, that spiralling downwards still starts, but it stops.

Instead of falling into the pit, I can just choose not to keep going down.

Things are still upsetting and I still take things worse than other people but I dont become out-of-control spiralling downwards forever until I can't function. I have gained the ability to shrug and go "that sucks but, whatever".

I thought tumblr was where ppl who think they are funny or clever go to add captions to things that are actually funny, and make them less funny through their stupid caption or commentary

Sometimes it's Grain liquor and slim jims (happiest expression)

But if you get t-boned then your journey is finished immediately

Yeah like nothing stops me from eating. Nothing. Ever. Hideous gastro, vomiting, diarrhoea, mouth surgery, nothing has ever ever dampened my appetite.

And less porn (for now)

The way I survive my shitty internal thought processes is essentially this, but I think of it more as fatalism.

Things be as they be and usually there ain't shit fuck all I can do about it, so I accept that.

At least Negan had some redeeming qualities.

Negan