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I recently went to an exhibition on mushrooms at the botanical garden. Coprinus comatus was the main attraction, as it grows locally and is "mushroom of the year", apparently. If you harvest the caps and let them sit for a couple of days, they liquefy into a brown sludge. Strain that, and you have a beautiful brownish-black particle ink, with the particles being its spores. When young, they are also edible, and they stay non-toxic when liquid. Put a couple of drops of an antibacterial oil in it, and it keeps for some time. (Do not cook to sterilize though, as it congeals. Ruined the first batch like that!)
You speak about Cheddar doing stuff with Gouda you have denied yourself doing with Swiss for Gouda's sake, and it's making you vengefully jealous.
~~My question is - did Cheddar explicitly ask these sacrifices of you, or did you just assume that it would be the right thing to do?~~ edit: nevermind, gotta read better...
I feel like both of you handled some things suboptimally, but this particular aspect sounds like you've been doing this to yourself by assuming instead of communicating.
Generally I don't really understand this situation. Jealousy is not something that just happens to someone and has to be avoided. Jealousy is the flashing warning signal that something is not right (like a relationship that is unstable, or a need that isn't met), and the starting point of a conversation, not the end of it. But there doesn't seem to be a conversation around that in your story. Why not?