Which we should see as an excellent radicalization and growth opportunity!
It can be exhausting explaining ourselves again and again, always met with the same accusations and assumptions born from the mythos spun by our enemies.
However, we must remember these people are people, and many people change their minds given enough information, delivered with firm respect. For every belligerent person who appears like they wouldn't change their mind for anything, there are 10 people quietly lurking who are more on-the-fence. Even those who regurgitate insults and contempt may change their mind when the stars align!
These people are not our enemies, they are victims to the greatest campaign of dishonesty in human history! It is our duty to draw out the poison and deliver the medicine!
I know many comrades here have very difficult lives and do not have the patience or energy to deal with such people. Please do not exhaust yourself interacting with liberals, and allow comrades with more energy to deal with them.
Radicalizing online is not the end-all be-all, but at this point in the psychological war for those within the Anglosphere, every victory is invaluable!!!
Thank you for posting this. It's pretty valuable for me. I remember when I was in your position. I got banned from multiple communist communities because I was engaging the way I was taught to engage in university. There, I was allowed to just posit bullshit and get argued with. I thought it was the normal way of doing things. Getting slammed by commies over a couple of years made me realize that I was putting a ton of intellectual and emotional burden on them and instead what I needed to do was to become more curious than I knew how. As I finally developed that sort of curiosity, I suddenly started to learn more (go figure) and then I became one of those people who didn't want to deal with the same liberal arguments against communism that come up thousands of times a day.
So, good on you for starting to navigate this. I'm fairly confident that the reason you don't see yourself agreeing with the revolutionary communist left is because you're "not used to the incredibly in-depth dialectic with a non-/anti-Western point of view". Once you get enough of the historical context behind this position, you'll start to really ask questions about how we solve it and why we can't solve it in other ways. And then you'll find that there's historical context to those answers as well, and the long and the short of it ends up being, you're not entering in a brave new world where people are just starting to come to consciousness. You're a Westerner who is just starting to come to consciousness in a world that has been working through this dynamic for well over a century now.
Stay curious!