Ok I'm 30, I've been here before, you can't help any movements or orgs at your best potential unless you get your mind right, comrade.

I've been in your position, let's start with some healthy fundamental routine building. Start with working out (if you're able physically) whenever you want, morning or night. You don't have to start with anything crazy, hydrate, stretch, do this: 10 push ups 10 arm leg raises 10 leg lifts 10 crunches 10 burpees (if you can start with 5 if too heavy) Then go run a mile (when you get better at this you can add more than a mile). I recommend this because you don't need a gym, so there's no excuse just do it in your backyard and run out for a run in your community, you don't need to drive anywhere.

This will help clear your mind and raise some inner motivation.

Now I don't know what country or region you're in but if you have access to an education (state funded) start considering something that could interest you to study in academically. If academics aren't for you maybe something you can be trained or certified to do ( an EMT or lifeguard, these are just examples). Don't feel overwhelmed by this I'm not asking you to figure out your career or something you wanna do for life, just something you can apply yourself healthily.

Again don't know where you live but if you have health insurance or access to any program for therapy I highly recommend that as well.

I rarely cook myself but do your best to make healthier choices with your meals. If you have access to food stamps program in your region apply for it.

Don't feel bad this is just the inner work needed to make a positive change in your life. Self care isn't all about spoiling yourself, that is a capitalist myth to promote consumerism. Self care is the act of inner work, to set your mind right. Self awareness is key but it is not the hand that turns the key lock, opens the door, and shuts it's behind us.

If you want a recommendation to read, I highly suggest Autobiography of Pablo Neruda, I am reading it in Spanish but you can find it in English. It is about the Chilean Poet, Pablo Neruda who was a beautiful writer and a socialist who has a very interesting journey of life.

If there's anyway I can help to advise you feel free to PM comrade, sometimes we all just need a Mr Rogers presence.

Coming from someone who self manages ADHD without meds (by choice ),I am constantly in mental inner turmoil 🙃