Eh. It’s fine.
I’ll admit I’ve fed into the Linux elitism bullshit, but that’s really all it is. If Windows works for you use it. A computer is a tool for you to use, not to frustrate you for hours on end.
Give it a break, and maybe try booting from USB for a while.. Kick the tires a bit, or whatever. Get comfy with small shit first. I’ve been dicking around with some form of Linux for over 20 years now but my first year or so was difficult AF. I installed Linux, then ran up against a wall, and installed Windows. Then I’d go back, install Linux, still hit a wall, and go back to Windows.
Try it again, if you’d like. A small Linux partition, and a larger windows partition. Boot into Linux and goof around w it on occasion. Try to make it manageable bites before the frustration sets in.
And don’t worry about using Windows. If it works for you, use it.