Man being sober is so fucking hard. Like I have to get a legal job, pay the taxman, make meaningful human connections and shit? I can't just flip full bricks once a month and keep enough to get high off of until I could re-up? This is some bullshit.

I'm pretty sure the worst chemical ever is VX. But yeah I've been on at least 10mg of xans or Klonopin a day since I was 16. I was going thru withdrawal for like a month lol

As a former addict/drug lord I always love to ask: What's your leftist opinion on drug dealing/the war on drugs?

I'm fresh out of rehab so you know what time it is..... That's right time to face PCP soaked crack rocks

Nope. Honestly it devastated me when I learned but if I focus on it at all I'll not just relapse on booze, I'll end up slamming fent. Sooooo like I'm just accepting the situation, moving on, and preparing to probably pay for my ex wife's funeral when they inevitably kill themselves. (We're still legally married)

I literally can't do AA or NA. I have religious trauma and like no matter what they say AA and NA is 100% a judeochristan program. I'm doing recovery dharma and SMART recovery.

I'll always LUB him tho

QMy ex wife has Basil. They broke up with their Dem Soc sugar mommy they started dating as a rebound from me. So now they're threatening to throw themself in the grand canyon and I have no idea where them or Basil is. I'll likely never see my son again lol.

I'm on a new med called clonodine! It's a beta blocker, lowers your heart rate and causes extreme chill but can't be abused like benzos can. (If you pop more than prescribed you just fucking faint) I also don't have cravings for alcohol. I was just using that when I didn't have benzos and when I had benzos it was to make em hit like a truck. Still not gonna drink for a loooooong time tho

I had a cold and was struggling to breathe (gotta love asthma) so they had to send me to the ER. I did a few steroidal breathing therapies and was sent back. The breathing treatments drop your BP extremely. So on my first smoke break back I was sitting next to cute Bi dude and after I smoked my first cigarette I saw a pigeon walking toward me. It started "glitching" and I started seeing it sideways and unable to hear anything. Apparently I had a seizure from a rapid increase in BP from smoking and woke up in the icu 2 days later. Bc staff can't intervene (only nurses can) I almost died. A paramedic who was addicted to powder coke and from a different unit saw what was happening, moved me into the recovery position, gave me CPR, And stabilized me. He was discharged for "interfering with a medical emergency"

Some dude screamed at and grabbed one of the case managers wrist and we all jumped him lmao. For "some reason" the camera didn't record it and he got discharged. Nothing happened to the rest of us.

Someone was there just for the court bc he got drunk and almost beat two cops to death after mace did nothing and he was tazed and ripped the prongs out of his self and beat tf out of the pigs. Would talk about "fucking his language instructor at the farm" everyone thought he was just a badass hick but I deadass asked if he was DIA or CIA and he just said "3 SOG, bitch"