Apologies for not seeing the pronouns. I'm not used to checking them yet. Not used to being somewhere they are so easily presented. Definitely something to work on.
My problem at this point is that I see this as a small issue and you are presenting it as one worthy of actual fascisism. I find your position extremely accusational and unreasonable.
You say I support fascism. I give my personal stance on why I feel I cannot abstain from voting due to the reasons I laid out and you insult me like Im wearing an SS uniform. I cannot in any fucking way see that as anything other but unreasonable anger with no actual belief behind it because that's fucking insane.
Do you really believe that? Are you genuinely really actually telling me that it's so important that I don't vote, that if you knew me and we were friends you would be taking a baseball bat to me over it? You would boot me from your org and kick my ass on the way out?
If so, I don't fucking understand. Spent all this time talking about how voting is pointless , both candidates are the same, voting changes nothing and turn around and say but if you put a name down in the hopes maybe less people would get hurt that you are a card carrying Nazi scumbag.
Your right, I don't understand you. I don't understand why you continue threatening and talking about physical violence you wish you could enact on me. I do not consider it a way to encourage me to see your point. I ain't a fucking Nazi. I ain't a fucking fascist. You fucking know I ain't and trying to gaslight me into thinking I am some kinda monster is just fucking mean. It's manipulative. It's disrespectful. It's angry bad vibe bullshit for what. You convince me not to do the thing that doesn't matter? Cool. Glad I lost sleep over this.
Maybe instead of acting aggressively in the hopes my fear of not fitting in, you talk to me like a god damn human being. Now I'm all emotional, insomniac, and just generally pissed off and it's gonna continue. Mental state ruined. Even saying all this is just more fuel to your fire.
Whatever. If that's your bar, that's your bar. If you don't want to be nice, I am not dependent on you being so. After all that I'm still going to call you comrade, because I ain't gonna let some petty bullshit discussion make me forget my solidarity.
I already said that I didn't come into this conversation with intent to be convinced. Apologized for that, and tries to disengage on good terms. Call that a fucking high horse all you want, I call it recognizing that I am defensive and needing to settle that mindset back to an open state before being able to do self crit.
That shit takes time and a proper state of mind. Of which I am not in right now. And you instead choose to tell me to die and call me a fascist that you'd beat.
I am being as open about that as possible, your acting as if for every second I don't declare I won't vote for Biden another genocide starts up.
You kept pushing it. I'm not even arguing the idea anymore. I am just arguing about why will you not let me kindly end the discussion on good terms even after I acknowledged that I couldn't, at this moment, dissect my entire stance on voting because I had become emotional. Why did you need to keep pushing it towards hate?
Because I came off as a smug piece of shit? Because I wanted to feel some solidarity with a fellow commie after a disagreement? I'm trying to learn, I have been on a growing journey my whole life. I was a full ass Nazi in a racist ass shit fucking town as a kid and I have done so much to grow past that. All I fucking wanted was to end the conversation so I could think about everything said in a less defensive mindset and feel some good vibes from a peer.
You ruined that for me. You made me feel like shit, I'm even more defensive, and now got to work through all these bullshit feelings of being a "traitor" in some random fuckers eyes before I can begin even considering what you and others said.