Wmill

My time's gonna be limited going forward but getting the urge to do all 326 routes of shadow the hedgehog again, got reloaded 1.2 running on dolphin with the widescreen going. Got the added S ranks, got some tweaks, got a timer for each route and got the tab open for the library routes. It's very much a comfort game at this point

I click on one dating advice vid and now the algorithm keeps giving me more, have to stop myself from doing nothing but watch them all week. Been through that before way too many times but I keep hoping one of them will make the whole meeting people and being vulnerable part easier, got trouble expressing interest in people because of fear of rejection.

big thanks for this I'll give it a read

I watched the first 2 season, still have season one on dvd on my shelf, but dropped it during the 3rd season. Didn't really feel any shame the songs where good and the characters were fun but 3 season didn't hook me as much. Idk if I'd go back to watching it or not my attention is too split for now to sit down and watch.

Did some gender yesterday, applied for a manual job so put some insoles in my shoes to get to 6' and put some suspenders on to make myself look stronger . I probably was gonna get the job anyway but wanted to impress and try something. Gender sure is stuff, I know on the other end growing up I always thought girls with eye shadow where hot as hell and then I tried eye shadow and found out I got the same stat boost honestly I can fuck with all make up other than lipstick since I like to eat stuff.

I've no clue to be honest

depression/alcoholism

After I quit drinking been doing way more gnc stuff so idk, seemed to help me out and while my dad was blind to it all my mom was hesitant but came around eventually. I don't exactly remember how long after she had that dream when I started getting healthier but I'm happy for it either way. Right now going the route, which I've no clue how to translate that in spanish to them, but I'm happy to know if I ever do go she/her that she's accepting.

Aced it big thanks

Do feel nervous though, put off dating for the reason that I've no job. If this falls into place then I feel like I can try my hand dating and stuff, I've been feeling like my life's been on hold long enough. That'll be another phase to get through and I won't stop the self discovery/improvement stuff but it's something to look forward to. This year sucked for me but next year will be my year I know it.

Haven't painted my nails in a bit and for the best, got an interview tomorrow and I gotta look not too hot to intimidate the interviewers. I'll give it a month if I get in to secure my position before I get back to it, maybe finally get some high end nail polish and not the dollar store stuff I find.

My mom had a dream I transitioned and she got me a purple dress, she told me she cried with how beautiful I looked.

I still need to finish it tbh, it definitely gets underrated imo