cw: internalized transphobia
Vacillating between loving that I'm trans and hating that I'm trans. I've been keeping it close to my chest because it feels like uncertainty, but my wife called me out yesterday saying that it sounds like I already know and just don't want to accept it.
Looking for in person support groups to feel like I belong somewhere again.
Hoping for a time where I can love myself finally ๐
I love the rant, thank you for taking the time to write it all out ๐ Yeah, the main reason for Lexapro over Zoloft is the potential for sexual dysfunction.
Not to spill my guts too much but that is very important to me right now, and since I'm not medically transitioning at the moment, I'm not at risk of losing function otherwise. Thankfully I have a very proactive psychiatrist :) I appreciate the well wishes! Thank you so much ๐
So sorry to hear that :( it's not helped by there being some seriously stressful things happening in my life, so there are real feelings of panic alongside these phantom instances.
I hope you can get some relief from it again 
Lexapro. It's the first one I'm trying, so hopefully there's a better option or this just a temporary effect :)
I've noticed things feel so much slower now. I always had a lot of anxiety, and I'm wondering if it actually is doing something there.
Thank you for the encouragement
cw: mental health, dysphoria
Started an antidepressant a couple weeks ago, and it's at a low enough dose it does not help me at all, but the side effects have been so nasty. Constant dissociation. I looked in the mirror the other night and had extreme facial dysphoria. It felt like I was looking at a demon :(
I think the side effects have actually made me even more stressed too. I'm frequently feeling the beginning stages of panic attacks. Not fun :/
On a more positive note, loving my new dresses, and I have a couple extremely supportive friends who make me feel very loved ๐ Things will get better :)
I feel this so hard. Hugs
Had a magical weekend and feeling ready for this one. Hope you all are doing great!
It's been a rough few days, but I got my first dresses in the mail yesterday. They are very pretty and (I think) flattering on me :)
Happy you are feeling better
I would love some coordinated advice! I am unearthing my love for fashion and know almost nothing haha