Legitimately not a place fit for anyone to live but the delusional
puckylinky
joined 3 weeks ago
it was always interesting to me growing up how you could never be rejected from Christianity or fellow Christians despite committing sin after sin and vocal intention that you had no desire to change (unless you were gay/trans or denounced Jesus) but simply repent when you need that mental dose of justification and protection. break every single rule in the bible and it's fine as long as you keep wearing that rosary and be vocal about being a Christian. that mentality seems to be pretty exclusive to Christianity (obv it happens in other religions too but not as commonplace)
i think i was taught that in school, once i learned about nutrition facts it was over
i remember applesauce was also pushed as healthy in a similar way
yea the "avoid" special move is losing its efficiency day by day
i've accepted i can't change them but it would be more bearable if they didn't gaslight me about it
biked to the park for a calisthenics and sprint section, weather was pretty nice, was decent to see people out and about, passed by my neighbor on the way home in the middle of a water gun fight with their kids, only to enter the house and immediately be faced with dysfunctional septic people, very skillfully souring my entire bright morning and now struggling to prevent it from souring the rest..
wish i had friends to hang out with but instead i will probably just work on something creatively, play a couple rounds of noita, and maybe watch the holy mountain
what do i do when a parent keeps ignoring things i've told them/keeps trying to micromanage/puts you in positions where you have to replay conversations over and over about boundaries because they always act like its your first time telling them it? and then act shocked/taken aback/hurt when you inevitably explode because they continue to not change at all and you feel like a crazy person stuck in a loop resaying the same things over and over? tried it nicely, tried it rudely, tried it directly, tried it abstractly...... trying to avoid blowing a massive fuse
another night of absolutely pointless self reflection
cw triggering language about abuse
it's interesting(by interesting i mean immensely sad and disturbing) thinking about how society weighs abuse based on whether it was "physical" or "sexual" and the age and perceived gender of the abuse victim.. like pedophilia vs non SA physical violence towards children, men vs women vs trans/gnc vs old vs young, whether there is an attempted social "ownership" of the victim thru parentship or marriage, etc.. even race
Wish this was more talked about
YOU WOULDN'T KNOW MY PAINS UNLESS YOU HIT A CHILD WITH A CAR!
no one understands me ..