Replying again because I remembered a thought-
A sort of version of this question I've seen, that for me was a loooottt more helpful, but is more kinda aimed at sussing out if you're nonbinary vs male/female, was:
If you had been born as the opposite sex, would you have felt the need to physically transition?
And like. No? If I'd been born with a penis I think my main body dysphoria would've been over the fact that (based on my family) I would've been circumcised. The only physical change I would've done would be foreskin restoration, lol (also I'd work way harder at taking care of my butthole and not having hemorrhoids, since I wouldn't have the easier bottoming option I have now). Other than that I believe I'd just be a queer sometimes femme sometimes masc guy, I doubt I'd identify as any kind of trans.
But as is I was born into my body and have experienced decades of dysphoria and have been various states of egg for most of that time. I'm not a woman but living as a girl and then a woman has shaped so much of who I am, that to remove that, would fundamentally change me.
If there was a magical get a full sized uncut penis button I think I would probably (but like, I'm not even certain of that) press it?
But I'm not interested in any button that undoes my life. Because then I'm not me. And that line of thinking is confusing and gives me existential dread. No thanks.
Sam Francisco, to get a bunch of gender affirming surgery (assuming it's truly ALL expenses included, and surgery is an expense).