so i've been in therapy for a couple years and it's been working sort of. like i've gotten better at processing and understanding my shit. so instead of being lost in a forest, i feel like i'm following a trail in the forest.
anyway the only problem was that while i was dealing with all that internal turmoil, i wasn't able to prevent physical symptoms. which had gotten very severe in the past few months. the palpitations, fidgeting and bad sleep were one part. but more frustrating was my increasing inability to just do things. i just wanted to be left alone and not leave my room and not see anyone. but i've done isolation before and really really did not want to go down that path again. so i discussed it with my therapist and visited a psych today, idk what i expected but Doc basically said your anxiety is a lot and there is way too much noise in your head. and prescribed me Fluoxetine and Propranolol daily. and Trazodone only on nights i'm struggling with sleep. but they said it's apparent i'm doing work at therapy because i'm connecting things very well, but i need meds to support my current inner work because otherwise it's very hard on me.
i was just kinda unprepared i guess so i told the Doc i'll think about it. sorry for the long ass text but i'd love any advice really. is there any point in getting a second opinion from someone else? or is this fairly normal and i should take the meds? i took propranolol a few years back for migraines so i know that's fairly low-risk, but idk about Fluoxetine (never took SSRIs) and i'm probably gonna skip the Trazodone.
nothing of note has happened yet. just clashes in Islamabad and Lahore and party workers are being arrested from everywhere. the Shanghai Cooperation Organization (SCO) Summit is on the 15th and it seems the state is gonna clean up everything before then. i don't see the protestors gaining anything from this and it's pointless to expect some serious revolutionary strategy from Imran Khan's party since they are essentially just libs.
but then again, as daddy US crumbles so has the cognitive ability of the puppet state in PK. so you never know