Weed makes me paranoid and cranky. Maybe I was born weeded and smoking pushes me into negative weed territory, idk
I will delete my account around this week. While I had the best time on here with this account so far, I am beginning to feel the serotonin kick turn into addiction. I also don't wanna become a famous poster, for a host of reasons. I will return eventually, but it's best to end this run and say goodbye for now.
I am experiencing improved short term memory to a degree that is surprising me. Small things like clearly remembering what I did yesterday, seeing a five digit code for a second and being able to reproduce it. Time perception has also changed, The last three years were more or less a constant haze. Now moments feel "fuller", less distant and foggy, but also not like "lost time".
Nothing in my habits changed that much except maybe allowing for more "small luxuries" and not just eating bread, water and a vegan spread. I did significiantly improve my abilities in a language, that is the biggest difference, but only noticed it now, after the biggest period of learning has been over for some months
So while I am happy, I am confused about why this happened.
Revelation 18;23: "(...)
For your merchants were the great ones of the earth,
because all the nations were deceived by your sorcery.”
24 And there was found in her the blood of prophets and saints, and of all who had been slain on the earth
ابادات غير ححدودة على العالم الأول
إن يومنا فيقترب
عاشت الماوية التشينغية
How this actually goes is no3 getting mercilessly curbstomped by one and two, then the democrat throws the sword and blames no3 for losing
I agree
You gotta be able to hit back the neolibs back, verbally, in a manner that exposes their shitty behaviour, if feasible. Become a pillar of the community, if possible. Maybe raise your concern when they say something crass, wait for an opportunity to bring up that it must be nice to afford that much cosplay, small nasty ways to show they are not the same as the rest of the community (if the community is overwhelmingly petit bourgs or LA or 
, don't bother too much.) I am at the same spot with a bunch of people and if you are in a place to put them down without losing access to vital ressources and have taken precautions, there are only so many ways we can fight back rn and wrestling control from shitty "community leaders" is the best we can hope for, often.
I don't mean to talk down to you, your irritation is valid, I just think it shouldn't be the end point, otherwise it will just turn into stewing resentment. I am not excluding myself from needing to do that more often,
I honestily didnt know that 
I am not happy that it didnt work, so I will try again: To outsiders, it seems like my personality completely shifts, but I experience no significant breaks in memory or self-perception, as a rule
I have been told 
is a girl, my bad 
I need it for a very edit I thought off, pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Hi everyone,
I want to write more and hopefully get better, but I got really turned off from writing coms by what I heard and saw on Discord and 
. I am looking for a group where I don't receive unnecessarily caustic/bitter/passive-aggressive criticism for mistakes, especially since english is not my first language and I am probably not the most innovative/daring writer around (I just wanna write fantasy). If you need an example of stuff I take issue with, look at the r/writingcirclejerk mega and reccs for what turns me off.
I get that you have to show your stuff to other people eventually and get criticism for your mistakes, but I would prefer a space that is not so emotionally frustrating, lowkey to highkey transphobic/ableist etc etc. I get screamed at and have to deal with condescending assholes enough on the job/politics. I don't want that in something that is supposed to be FUN.
Do you have any recommendations for online groups or places that are relaxed, ND- and trans-friendly? They should still offer criticism and not white lie about things. Becoming "Better" means avoiding clear, objective mistakes, better structure, producing enjoyable, if not super groundbreaking works of fictions in the english language.
I don't want any "the world is hard, you have to be hard on yourself, you should suck it up" shit. There has to be a less gnarly way.
Thank you so much (insert unobtrusive, yet friendly heart emoji here)
I had like an interaction where I had some decent clues that a person only introduces their pronouns after they clocked me, e.g. other people didn't do pronoun intro before, the way the "ally in question" did it felt pretty artificial (I am willing to write that off on being paranoid).
The message is "I know you are trans, you are not passing, but I am graciously allowing you to exist in this group setting". Same goes for only doing pronoun checks in a group setting when you clock a trans person. I find it worse than assuming wrong pronouns and switching after being gently corrected. Maybe because I have higher standards of would-be allies than the average person. After all, allies are supposed to have my back, not just not having a 
moment when I pass by. On the other hand, I have it easy for being okay with being a semi-binary trans woman, so obv enby struggles are another thing, but clocking still stings like a bitch.
Pronoun checks should be normalized to a point cis people do it intuitively, but idk if we will ever get there. If you wanna chime in, when and how did you call that behaviour out or point it out, if you saw it? Did your response work?
Assad must go (I will delete soon)