Gay_Wrath

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[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 6 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago)

i wish i could remember who exactly it was, but i remember a few accounts of black panthers leaving the united states - possibly on a trip to mecca, and being like "these white people aren't really white" because they were "brothers in islam" and weren't actually behaving like crackkkers in america do, and were instead being respectful and kind. So actually yeah, the black panthers did understand that whtieness is political and a social construct

Ah, looks it was literally Malcom X himself

https://www.islamicity.org/6279/malcolm-x-the-pilgrimage-to-makkah/

"We were truly all the same (brothers)--because their belief in one God had removed the white from their minds, the white from their behavior, and the white from their attitude."

i know you're making a joke, but i want to point out that this thread is about white people joking about hurting white people is bad, but somehow a joke about black activists not understanding basic critical race theory and jumping to being violent to white people is okay. I don't really get that. i feel like joking that black activists will hurt white people because they don't understand their own theory is far more racist than white people saying "kill all mayos"

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 4 points 9 months ago

Hilarious. goading racist white people into being banned and dunked on is good to me, and it's why i make "kill all whitey" posts or whatever. It is definitely not to win brownie points from POC members. I'm just a shit stirrer and hate racists, and it's quite easy to troll them by just using the same language they use to be racist against the people in power instead. Suddenly they have a problem with language like that if it's used to punch up instead of down.

IMO in a white supremacist culture you can't even be racist to white people. Baised against maybe, but you can't actually be structurally racist.

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 15 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago)

I guess i don't see it much differently than calling for the genocide of colonizers or xi-plz . Like it's not that deep. It's fun to dunk on people who take anti-whiteness seriously. But i'm sorry it makes you feel uncomfortable and like mayos are trying to absolve themselves of their mayoness. I guess i just see it as white people rejecting white supremacy and punching up at white people who believe in white supremacy or race """science""", which seems harmless to me. But thanks for sharing your point of view.

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 7 points 9 months ago (1 children)

this might be terrible advice. Maybe since you have PTSD you are dealing with your body going into freeze mode when threatened, but you really need to get more fight mode. Practicing hitting for real and sparring will definitely help condition you to automatically respond when threatened, i have experienced this when i've been forced to self defend. It is automatic now.

I think just build up to making it feel safe to spar and feel angry. I feel like when i was stuck in feeling frozen from PTSD, i wouldn't even let myself feel anger because it was too dangerous for me, so maybe you're in the same place? Yeesh i'm terrible at this.

If you can't imagine hurting them over self-defense, maybe try imagining hurting them over some imagined defense of others. When sparring, as long as you've got safety equipment on, you're good to go. it's great practice for learning. If it's too real to think of it as real self defense, just think of it as a fun game like fencing to get yourself into it, that lets your body learn how to move and gets your brain time to warm up to the idea of actually hurting another person.

You could try reading some black panther's theory about self defense and seeing if any sticks with you into why it's good actually to be ready to hit back. I'm kicking myself because i don't remember exactly the title i'm thinking of, but Black Against Empire is great, or maybe it was Against Civility. thonk There's also a citations needed about nonviolence somewhere, i'm sure it's in the podcasts directory or here's the transcript.

Anyway, here's "In defense of self defense" by comrade Huey Newton

"the oppressor has no rights that the oppressed is bound to respect. Kill the slavemaster, destroy him utterly, move against him with implacable fortitude. Break his oppressive power by any means necessary."

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 5 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago)

the water makes it extra conductive centrist

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 6 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago)

I agree, most likely it's one of those things that arose independently or we won't ever really find the first usage of the term.

BUT, since i was curious, I tried searching "Genocide Joe" on oldest search, which supposedly tries to find the first time something appeared. That's saying the first instance of the phrase "Genocide Joe" was this instagram post on Oct 18, 2023, but i'm kind of doubt

Not sure how else to search for it though.

IF that's true, then this hexbear post on October 16 does actually predate the instagram one though. So there's no evidence against the hexbear originated the term theory, (that i could find), and that's certainly the funniest theory. Still, i think it probably just happened organically in a few places at once lol.

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 6 points 9 months ago

Honestly as someone who reads a lot, theory and nonfiction is generally a challenge to get through. I have to cycle through easier books and nonfiction/theory. Some theory is easier than others, but if you're trying to start a reading habit, i wouldn't start with dense texts unless you're prepared that it will be a bit hard.

Maybe try something more engaging to get your brain used to focusing on reading and then you can try to intersperse some theory in between fiction or graphic novel chapters or something? That's what i do.

I feel like reading is almost a form of mindfulness, where you have to be completely focused on the task to really absorb everything. So it takes some time to get used to focusing like that for extended periods of time. It's a lot easier when the book is entertaining, lol!

Some people i've known have read along with an audiobook to help focus, too.

Sorry for the wall of text, i'm just a book lover so i like to help other people get into it when they seem interested :)

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 10 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago) (1 children)

Yesterday i got called a "tankie incel" for pointing out that biden supports is(n't)real, and that states doing genocidal oppression aren't doing democracy

I mean, i am a tankie, but it's not like they should have known that from my comment

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 8 points 9 months ago

they always ask me if i want sharing plates at the restaurant and i always so no, but end up sharing anyway

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 19 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago)

remember when trump got like two billion dollars in free coverage from the news and everyone was like damn, maybe we shouldn't do that next time

Well, the news corps are at it again folks. More and more people are saying it. They're gonna meme the big red boy into the white house again

Two one term fascists fighting over which gets to be the next full term war criminal in chief

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 13 points 9 months ago (1 children)

The further in time i get away from my breakup from my ex, the more i see the red flags.

People really do hide their controlling nature until years in sometimes 😔Another reason victim blaming is shit. Like sorry i didn't realize someone was hiding their worst from me until years later agony-consuming And when the person you trust most is acting like what they did is no big deal, it's easy to gaslight yourself into accepting it.

CW mild references to non-physical abuse

spoilerShe literally said in text that she was taking money from me because i "deserved it" like what the fuck????????????? But somehow it's taken a long time for my brain to stop making excuses for her and accept that was actually abuse. As was the other controlling things she did. Like the times she threw 8 hour tantrums if i so much as had a grumpy expression on my face, even if it was grumpiness from work... me being slightly upset at all triggered her RSD and then it became about calming her down for the next solid 4-8 hours after. it just became easier to hide how i felt than express any negative emotion at all. And then when i couldn't control it, and show the very slightest negative emotion like sighing then she accused me of overreacting and getting too angry at her :| When she got upset with me for putting my elderly cat over her family, i defaulted to shutting down to try to get my feelings under control as to not show a single iota of emotion, as usual. But then she did something different, she started goading me and said "Oh i guess this conversation is over and i should go." i lost my temper, sighed dramatically and asked "what do you want from me, go back in time?" and the she literally said "i need to be able to give you feedback without you getting upset at me" and acted really hurt, like i had literally like called her a slur or been really hurtful on purpose. When i had been unable to give her any sort of negative feedback for our entire relationship. The projection was off the charts.

When i got into my next relationship and my partner reacted normally to me being slightly upset with them, instead of berating me for my feelings and saying i was controlling them i was like ???? wait what??? it's okay for me to share that i'm unhappy? You.. actually want me to feel better and aren't just going to make this about yourself? What the fuck

[–] Gay_Wrath@hexbear.net 9 points 9 months ago
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