QueerCommie

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[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 46 points 1 day ago

Hm, it just occurred to me that politicians could say they oppose genocide.

[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 4 points 1 day ago

I totally agree. I tend to argue on your side, I am simply compelled to disagree with people.

[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 3 points 1 day ago

Yes for autism but somehow my grandma got diagnosed with ADHD years ago and no one else decided to look into it. My other side is pretty ND seeming but no diagnoses.

[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 9 points 1 day ago (2 children)

Some ADHDers can probably live like that. Some, like myself, have pretty bad understimulation, but I guess I have yet to see if stimulants make me feel ok.

[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 7 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Iirc blitzed says meth was very common among the German populace before the war.

[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 4 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago)

“I don’t care if your third eye is open if you don’t care about other people.” I may one day check those out. Probably preferable to the boring stuff about neurons and meditation I’m reading.

I love the ideas so it’s sad to me when people don’t like Buddhism, but considering how much class society has corrupted it in practice I understand. Books are nice but I don’t think I could trust any real life religious leaders at this point. I don’t really trust any neurotypical with handling the dharma responsibly as long as we don’t live in socialism. There’s this Tibetan monk I watch on YouTube and it’s fascinating the obvious (to my autistic Marxist brain) critiques he makes of normie spiritual seekers. It seems like they just immediately put their trust in anyone with fancy robes. And of course this critical thinking guy is still saying there is no way to practice nearly as good as with a teacher. Meanwhile his tradition is riddled with contradictions. Sure there’s badass ascetics, but they also had a society of 98% slaves not too long ago. He’s all about lineage holders and maybe there are cool ones, but even he acknowledges that there’s a bunch of rich lamas who take a ton of money to mispractice.

Edit: probably not going to retain the details, but reading your past Buddhism effort posts are pretty interesting

[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 7 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago) (2 children)

I’m not particularly sectarian and still investigating various schools and such, but screw non-judgment, I hate seeing mainstream and new age bullshit where people just want to be happy all the time. I don’t trust anyone who isn’t a communist or a monk when it comes to this stuff (well, actually not a fan of religious institutions either for the most part). Whenever I hear some self help - if “science based” thing talking about certain benefits of meditation I cringe. Fuck blissing out or making illusions more comfy, I’m in this for insight into the true nature of reality. Even advice to lean into the good feelings of meditation by more trusted sources I contradict. I perpetually suffer, and suffering makes a better object of meditation than whatever bs.

That experience sucks. I’m glad I came at this from a philosophically informed place while learning about AuDHD.

Edit: also gotta hate pseudo eastern bs that tries to embolden the self. Like I get people have self esteem issues and people need help with that, but it’s silly to aim to think highly of “yourself” when the goal of these source traditions is to reduce suffering by realizing the illusory nature of that idea. Relatedly “mindfulness” and “mantras” as excuses to be selfish and ignore interconnection. No the Buddha was not trying to enhance fucking hedonism. No you shouldn’t ignore your “judgement” about the immorality of something. We should be striving to be bodhisattvas feeling the suffering of the world. The utter perversion of ruling class dominant ideology cooptation.

[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 5 points 1 day ago

Maybe. It’s hard to be consistent with it but my mind loves to do things in the background and while it’s recently been pondering pointlessly at times I have had it frequently coming back to the present moment: proprioception, observing sensations, insight into non-self, impermanence, and unsatisfactoriness. It has been pleasant at times. Lately, I’ve been listening to Buddhist audiobooks to help with initiating mindless tasks. I’ve also found that the insight practice of asking where the self is can help with anxiety and pain.

http://www.wearesentience.com/uploads/7/2/9/3/7293936/progressive-stages-of-meditation-on-emptiness.pdf

[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 8 points 1 day ago (4 children)

Mindful eating is weird with ADHD. The cringey (in my contrarian opinion) basic mcmindfulness approach makes it sound like you’re savoring everything perfectly and super satisfied and interested. I do try to avoid eating mindlessly, but even when I’m paying attention I usually eat super fast and instead of noticing all the sensory “realness” I tend more towards the insight of “shit this sucks, it’s constantly changing and not real and doing nothing for my understimulation and yet my executive dysfunction will keep making me do it fruitlessly.”

[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 12 points 1 day ago

“Tomahawk” more like tomahawk tuah. (I can’t stop thinking this whenever I see the title)

 

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It is commonly called “noting”, and has its origins in Sutta 111 of the Middle Length Discourses of the Buddha (or Majjhima Nikaya [MN], very worthwhile reading), usually referred to as MN 111, called “One by One as They Occurred”, and in MN 10, Satipatthana Sutta (variously translated as “Four Foundations of Mindfulness”, or “Frames of Reference”, etc.), as well as Sutta 22, Mahasatipatthana Sutta (“Greater Discourse on Mindfulness”) of the Long Discourses of the Buddha (or Digha Nikaya [DN]), usually referred to as DN 22. Noting is used primarily in the Mahasi Sayadaw insight tradition from Burma, though related exercises can be found in various Zen traditions, notably Soto Zen and Korean Chan, such as repeatedly asking, “What is this?”

Noting is the exercise that gained for me the most breaks and insights in my early practice, particularly when done on retreats, and because of that my enthusiasm for it is extreme. I still consider it the core foundation of my early to middle practice, the technique that I fell back on when things turned difficult or when I really wanted to push deep into new insight territory.

The practice is this: make a quiet, mental one-word note of whatever you experience in each moment. Try to stay with the sensations of breathing, which may occur in many places, noting these quickly as “rising” (as many times as the sensations of the breath rising are experienced) and then “falling” in the same way. These are the fundamental insight practice instructions. When the mind wanders, notes might include “thinking”, “feeling”, “pressure”, “tension”, “wandering”, “anticipating”, “seeing”, “hearing”, “cold”, “hot”, “pain”, “pleasure”, etc.

Note these sensations one by one as they occur and then return to the sensations of breathing. When walking, note the feet moving as “lifting” and “placing”, or as “lifting”, “moving”, and “placing” as you perceive each of the many sensations of all those processes, noticing other sensations as they arise and returning simply to the sensations of the feet walking.

The details of this practice can be found in such books as Practical Insight Meditation, by Mahasi Sayadaw, which I highly recommend, available free online in various places and in book form. This is my all-time favorite dharma book. It is short and to the point. Its instructions work and the promised effects are reproducible. The first forty-two pages are total gold. There is no need for me to repeat much of the useful information found there, as it is pithy and now readily available online.

From https://www.mctb.org/mctb2/table-of-contents/part-i-the-fundamentals/7-the-seven-factors-of-awakening/

I just did this for a whole bike ride, noting everything that caught my attention. It’s far from “focused” but I remained aware the entire during, while losing track of time and thus impatience. Usually I get lost in thought when I try to be mindful, but I was able to simply label a thought or perception and move on. There are a lot of sensations if you pay attention so it will be challenging but that’s what keeps the mind engaged. You don’t need to be aware of everything at once, just wherever your attention is at a given moment. As well as other benefits, I feel like being aware of how everything is constantly changing helps one perceive life as more novel and thus less boring and miserable.

I’m sure it’s great if you’re not ADHD as well, as that’s the case with the author.

[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 20 points 1 day ago (3 children)

thonk I always feel like Thai is a scam for its excessive rice and noodles (flavor and nutritional valueless). Refrying it with a bunch of vegetables is pretty awesome tho.

 

Do they think it would be easier to just elect Democrat presidents and therefore fix everything totally? Plus the template’s stupid. Why would the school force Bart to write such?

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I keep getting TikTok ads and whenever I see the shop logo in the corner or “sponsored” I scroll away. They claim to help AuDHD but I have no idea what to trust.

I’m curious about mushrooms, lions mane or whatever, and microdosing hallucinogens.

 

As an AuDHD perfectionist I’ve never valued rest that much. I feel like I should be doing something interesting and being sedentary is bad for you. Recently I have realized the importance of resting as I have been exhausted by external demands and stimuli. I am at the point where even mostly lying around in my room all day, small demands and noises are too much. All I am able to really do is hyperfocus on my phone or maybe half attentively read. I know people can spend days in bed recovering from life, but I don’t have that time. I value this time not doing anything, but I’m afraid if I don’t get active or something I will have trouble falling asleep later. I know staying in your bed while awake disassociates it from getting ready to sleep so I have been lying elsewhere. Any tips? I have been eating. Are there comfy headphones that actually kill all the sound? Bc my ears do not want to process anything anymore.

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I’ve seen it referenced on TikTok but I’m curious about the evidence. It seems pretty plausible. The same gene is involved apparently. There’s very high “comorbidity.” Even in non “AuDHDers” many of the symptoms of one (that an individual “doesn’t have”) are present. Autists can be very different from eachother and it seems like they may sometimes have more in common with some ADHDers than eachother. Dividing things into specific labels like this is kinda lib and undialectical anyway. People already realizing Aspergers and other things were just autism. “Pathological Defiant Disorder” (allegedly) seems to basically just be a common presentation of AuDHD. There’s also the monotropism theory that both tend to be high in.

This is just my uneducated opinion on something I’ve been fixated on and pondering for a little while. I’m curious if anyone has any serious evidence or more interesting thoughts. There’s probably also connections to other neurodivergences.

 

I’m being hyperbolic, but TikTok just re-radicalized me and in ADHD energy mode and I know this urgency won’t last forever. I hate when things I’m around feel contaminated by toxins and I already wear a mask for the polluted air. I hate getting rid of things that might be useful, but also plastics bad so it might be useful. I do have OCD, but this isn’t about that it’s an exaggerated but rational urge. I realize this account’s lib asking you to “vote with your dollar,” but for personal health what do you think? I can afford this eventually. I’m clearly monotropism spiraling but it’s fun.

Also, should we stop recycling plastic if the product will be worse?

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I have trouble telling what the pain in my stomach is telling me, so I pretty much only just realized how bad my body hates certain sensory and social stuff. It’s as though my insides were on fire and the only way to slightly affect it is to cry (and obvi get away from the noise). I thought it was just anxiety or under stimulation before, but no, those are separate things. I have spent hours today doing various self care type stuff (meditation, being in nature, exercising, mindfully eating, yoga nitra, massage, taking a bath, fun things on the internet, positive stimulus of other sorts, zoning out), and the feeling’s still there. I don’t even mask. How do you deal with having to be in a sensory hell for hours of the day? How do you calm down? Please don’t say drugs.

Context: ADHD often makes people struggle with interoception and being able to relax.

 
 

(I collectivized this image btw)

Me:

 
 

“National Socialist” > Nazi

“Patriotic Socialist” > Pazi

“Democratic Socialist” > Democrazi (moderate wing of fascism after all)

“Libertarian Socialist” > Liberzi

Best of all: “Utopian Socialist” > Uzi

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