QueerCommie
joined 2 years ago
Ah, I think the problem in your case is that you actually do it in relation to the fear of losing something. I don’t actually think I’ve lost something, I just feel bad and have done the compulsion of checking whatever multiple times before I even think about it. /s
Simply anxiously check in perpetuity. I do this even with bags and solid pockets. 
I enjoy the novelty of meditating in shorts and a t shirt in the cold rain in public.
I love how there are different paths to enlightenment like Teks for growing mushrooms. Some people talk about them very similarly and it makes me happy.
Eh, it’s a dialectic. I am perpetually coming up with things to say and I rarely find the opportunity to say any of it. I just need to work on greetings or something ig.
I can talk ok but I do not know how to approach someone, acknowledge them without being first acknowledged, or build relationships let alone looking most people in the eye without getting pretty anxious. Even when I’m lucky not to initiate I’ve only felt “connected” to people for very brief moments.
Pay dues -> get aid? I guess if it’s for those in need in the group it’s like a co-op bank or something?
Darn, I was hopeful I could be shown my true potential for use by the nearest Maoist guerrilla army.
What if the eco-fascists saying Covid was the earth trying to cleanse itself were right?
I have gone days laughing at the absurdity of thinking. More often the thoughts fight themselves. Today was the latter but I was reminded of the exercise to ask who is perceiving what I think I perceive. “Who thinks this, who thinks that,” makes it sound like my mind is treating me like a dog and that is fun/ny. 
What if you just think you’re hot
It was such a good book idk how I haven't made this post yet. Just the introduction will have you hooked.
link to free download here or here
In summary, Ted Reese shows how Marxism Leninism is the way forward if we are to save the planet. It is largely a reaction to Fully Automated Luxury Communism and the general trend of people trying to reinvent socialism with utopian ideas in order to stop climate change. I actually read that right before, so it might be part of why I like this book. He explains how the TRPF is leading to the inevitable fall of capitalism in the near future. Anyone who denies that capitalism is reaching its final breaking point is in error. Labor theory of value continues to be vindicated. It's counter-tendencies cannot help it. Humanity looks pretty screwed with climate change, but socialism can enable innovation, stop extraction, and plan our way to a healthy world. Socialism will also employ easy technology and methods that capitalism refuses because it will undermine it's function. The path towards a new socialism is through studying the successes and failures of AES, not through trying to "discover" new forms, or repeating old forms. Principled Leninist tactics are the way.
This book gave me a lot of hope and I've recommended it to multiple libs (🤞). I highly recommend it.
Limitations:
It was published almost five years ago, so it's not all up to date on the geopolitics and so on. As we all know, the past few years we've had many weeks where decades happened. Reese takes a neutral position on China's socialistness, despite presenting evidence to the positive. He doesn't talk about decolonization, which makes sense for a Br*t, but that means it's not all encompassing. There is a lot of great info in there. It might not be easiest for complete newbies, but you don't have to read too much other theory first.
Here's some memes:
Long live ecosocialism!
