I've always just drawn for me, never really to show off, but I've shown friends my art lately and I think I'd like to start sharing it here. So I guess I'll be art posting more since I've stepped back from it all and entirely reverted back to my good ol' artsy self.

Ink is my favorite medium. It's permanent but I find solace in that, especially in times of extreme stress and turbulence where my ability to work with a permanent medium and have confidence in the direction I want to take a piece knowing that fuck ups can ruin the whole thing are the only things I can be sure of. And it's nice to have something that keeps me grounded the way working with ink does.

Ya know, if you can afford to use the stimulus for that and feel comfortable enough around fire arms. Yada yada, you know the drill.

Why no one vote Democrat :angery:

I really don't give a fuck where you're at in the book, tell us your thoughts so far. And I better not seeing any of you shitlibs saying "Wahhh someone already said this buttttt", I don't give a single fuck. I want to hear them regardless of whether or not someone has already said something similar. Put your thoughts out there and I won't ask again. Do some self-crit amongst each other.

• Are you beginning to understand how trans issues are inexplicably tied to cis people as well as trans people?
• What can be done materially on this site to further the trans struggle?
• What have you learned from Trans Liberation?
• What was shocking for you to read about?
• What misconceptions regarding trans struggles did you have that were clarified through the reading?
• Is there anything you didn't understand that you have questions about?
• Do you have a better understanding of what 'trans rights' entails instead of meaninglessly shouting it into the void?
• Have you learned anything about yourself through reading this book involving your own gender?
• Are there things that brought out intense emotion?
• Literally anything else you want to say. God, please, just fucking discuss.

For any of you confused about language used throughout the book, I highly encourage you to read this brief wall of text that I wrote breaking things down.

If you found the parts about Leslie's interactions with doctors to be horrifying, please read this comment from yours truly about my experience with needing to find a new doctor a couple weeks ago and the challenges I faced with that. I got very lucky and that experience is no where N E A R as bad as M O S T of us have had it, but it's an experience I feel comfortable sharing.

Here is a comment from Quartz talking about her own lived experiences with transphobia. Read it and let the emotional confusion that this is the life a lot of us are forced to live flow through you.

TLDR: Read the post, :LIB:.

So what does this mean, TCFunnySexNumber?

Good question. It means I'm staying.

You must be filled with rage still?

I'm still fucking tilted that things have reached the point they have and if y'all think I'm going to be any less brutal than I have been, y'all have another thing coming. If anything I've realized violently dunking is the only way to instill a sense of solidarity in you shitlibs.

Hooboy so where do we go from here?

The site has so much potential but it literally can't go on the way it has been and not become a pretty, vaporwave Cumtown. So sit down, buckle your fuckles, and let me break down a few of the changes necessary for this shit to be welcoming.

1. 🚨 SHUT THE FUCK UP. 🚨 Listen to your marginalized comrades when they speak of their struggles. Stop talking over us and open your fucking ears, you damn liberals. Cut the debatebro shit, educate yourselves on our issues, and ask questions instead of opening your dirty shitlib mouths to give your unwanted, reactionary opinions on our rights to exist. If you see someone being a debatebro about minority rights, just fucking snitch and dunk on them. Smash the report button.

2. Site team will be expanded to include more marginalized comrades. This isn't me calling for more female or POC drone strike operators. This is me elevating the voices of comrades who you shitlibs don't listen to normally so they can dunk you into solidarity with their struggles too.

3. Downvotes - they aren't coming back. If I have to explain why, then you're either new or haven't been listening. See point #1. We'll be updating the site's design to remove all downvote buttons Sometime Soomn TM. To all the wreckers who built downvote botnets: get fucked.

4. Rebr0ist-TCSexNumberist thought will be upheld and refined.

5. Other shit that's still in the pipelines to help you libs educate yourselves and get involved. Official announcements to come, don't shit your diapers too hard just yet.

So what are your closing thoughts having decided to stick around?

First of all, shout out to the admin team for letting me dunk on them so hard I convinced myself to stay.

Second, for the people who picked up Trans Liberation after I bullied you into it, you're worthy of both shame and praise. A lot of shame, but also a good amount of praise.

On one hand, this book was literally featured sitewide every weekend for 3 weeks. I even openly said in the original thread that I wanted cis folks to read it too. It shouldn't have taken a group of leftists so long to try to have an understanding of our struggles when trans related struggle sessions have continued plaguing the website since then. If you've come out of those struggle sessions and didn't ask someone for resources or even go to the fucking sidebar in !TEL in an attempt to educate yourself, shame on you.

On the other hand, the amount of people who immediately picked it up was really admirable. I shouldn't have to say this, but good on you for admitting to yourself that you were fucking underinformed and for seeking information. I've already seen some really good self-crit in the comments of the bully post and I'm looking forward to the discussion thread in the next few days.

As per usual in my times of uncertainty, I'm going to look to comrade Feinberg for wisdom like a devout Christian to the Bible.

Together, I believe we can forge a coalition that can fight on behalf of your oppression as well as mine. Together, we can raise each other's grievances and win the kind of significant change we all long for. But the foundation of unity is understanding.

I hope this has been a wake up call. I genuinely think things could be better if you all gave a shit to have an understanding of the struggles that marginalized comrades face. Have some damn solidarity and learn how to better fight on each other's behalf. I want to see you shitlibs reading literature on black struggle, women's struggle, indigenous struggle, neurodivergent struggle, disabled struggle, etc., not just literature on transgender struggle that I bullied you into reading.

Show us you give a shit and fucking do better like I know you're all capable of. Viva La Hexbear.

2/4/2021 Update: In light of chucklefuck TERF shit with Giggle, I am once again demanding the rest of you liberals educate yourselves on trans issues with Trans Liberation as a starting point. And you better believe more literature on minority struggle is in the pipelines. We're doing some reading this month, libs. Get ready.

AUDIOBOOKS HAVE BEEN RECORDED FOR ALL 8 CHAPTERS. YOU LITERALLY HAVE NO EXCUSE FOR LIBERALISM.

https://hexbear.net/post/48476

Follow that link and you'll find a free download of the book in pdf and comrade @EugeneDebs's epub, comrade @futomes' audiobooks for all eight chapters, and notes and discussions from the book (and don't you dare just read the fucking notes you god damn liberals, read the fucking book or listen to the audiobook).

I spent an entire weekend night scanning the whole damn book so y'all could educate yourselves on the fucking struggles we've been screaming about for the past six months and hardly any of you damn cissie libs participated. Had you participated you'd probably have a better understanding of the struggles we face and we probably wouldn't be in this situation where trans people are heading for this damn hills because you're all shit libs driving us away.

Fucking read it or listen to the audiobooks and I won't ask again. It's all free. The book is only 147 pages - that's 7 pages per night for exactly 3 weeks. I wipe my fucking ass with 7 pages, that's nothing. People put genuine effort into this to ensure you could educate yourselves and you have no reason not to outside of fucking liberalism.

It reads quick. Drop whatever the fuck you're reading and read this. Now. :leslie-shining:

~~Edit: I'll be throwing up a discussion thread at some point in the next week or so for you damn shitlibs to comment on with things you find meaningful so I'll know if you actually gave a shit. I swear to God I better see y'all in the comments.~~

If you're having trouble downloading, there are links in this comment by u/hexaflexagonbear that seem to work.

TL;DR I'm resigning as an admin of Chapo effective Sunday, January 24th, 2021.

So what's up, TCFunnySexNumber? Why are you resigning?

Well, let me break it down for you.

I'll start by saying the amount of messages I've received since The Great Pronoun Wars saying they would have left if there wasn't trans representation on the admin team has been not insignificant. It's a huge pressure and that shouldn't be what it takes to keep someone there. I'm tired of feeling like the Guerrilla GlueTM that's barely keeping this screaming metal death trap barreling down the highway. I'm not trying to jerk off my own efforts on site, but it's not hard to see.

But more than anything I'm tired of feeling like a pawn who exists to look pretty and give the illusion that we're a trans positive space.

We tell people to set pronoun tags to have a shred of solidarity with trans comrades.
Cissies throw a fit.

We tell the community we will be analyzing downvotes to see who is creating a hostile environment for trans people here.
Cissies throw a fit.

We remove the downvote button to stop people from using it as a means of shitting on trans people without actually saying anything.
Cissies throw a fit.

We ask people to put content warnings on posts with transphobia so not all of us have to see it or engage with it.
Cissies throw a fit.

Trans comrades leave the site and drop messages about how cissies have zero solidarity with us and don't actually give a fuck to learn about our issues or support us.
Cissies throw a fit.

We start banning people for being hostile when we bring up that the community is actively hostile towards us.
Cissies throw a fit.

We try to do literally anything to combat the reactionary environment.
Cissies throw a fucking fit.

I'd be hard pressed to look at all of that and say it's a trans positive space. Furthermore, I feel like it's fine that I exist as an admin so long as I don't stand up to any dudebro armchair leftists who vocally don't give a shit about us and genuinely want us to leave so they can have a pretty vaporwave Reddit 4chan hybrid without guilt or being told their "efforts" as "leftists" aren't good enough.

It's not difficult to see how the community has grown increasingly hostile toward us over the last few months. And for months the thought of snapping, going rogue mod, and banning everyone who has alienated us has crossed my mind infinitely more times than I'm willing to admit. I've seen calls for change get reduced to minor policy that eventually fizzles out and amounts to nothing and I'm tired of watching it happen and I'm drained by the amount of pushback and outright denial from the userbase that there is anything wrong in the first place.

Sure, the announcements of policy change could've been handled better, I'm willing to admit that. But to outright deny there are issues in the community and to make calls for admin elections in response to us saying we're banning people for perpetuating the hostile environment that's causing the site to hemorrhage trans people is fucking bullshit.

I'm tired of this community being like every other fucking lib space on the internet where it's just cis people meaninglessly shouting "trans rights!" into the void without any realistic understanding of what that means and without actively listening to us on how to be better allies.

I'm tired of us being talked over. The amount of times I've seen my argument of "go to !TEL and look at the first few pages and see the downvotes" repeated by cis users and be taken more seriously than others have taken that argument from me is fucking disgusting and I'm sick of it.

After Cass left and Confabulously posted about how she's thinking of leaving too, I just let the hatred that's been building up inside of me for months completely wash over me and started banning dissenters without much thought. My only regret is that I didn't ban more cissies during my purge spree.

I've dumped hundreds of hours of my life into this project. I'm grateful I did otherwise I wouldn't have met so many great people let alone all the trans cuties, but it's horrible that the aftermath of the most recent struggle session literally had me thinking about walking away from everything and starting my own record and coffee shop combo and living out the rest of my days as an NPC.

Over the next two weeks I'll be handing the other admins the keys to what I had done with the accounting software and files I'd been doing for us pro-bono but never really got around to finishing as a result of various scheduling conflicts, any accounts and passwords I made for various side projects here, and whatever else they need before I fuck off. I wish them all the best of luck. Maybe one day things will be different and I can return but I just can't see a clear path forward for myself here - and I definitely understand that this is a breakup cliche.

I left trans spaces because I fucking hated their politics and felt like I didn't fit in but now I realize I should've been trying to radicalize those trans spaces this entire time instead.