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「僕なんかいなくても」

大切な花を踏みにじられた 報復が怖いから　目を逸らす いくじなしの僕は蟻の巣の中 じっと不幸が過ぎ去るのを待つ だんだんだんだん　心が濁る だんだんだんだん　心が濁る 僕には　この世界を変えられないような気がしている

みんな　あの子の陰口を言うけど こっそり　本の貸し借りをしてる 銃口向けられ　踏み絵を踏まされ 歯を食いしばり「ウザいね」と笑う だんだんだんだん　心が腐る だんだんだんだん　心が腐る 僕には　この世界を変えられないような気がしている

零度の雨　期待の火が消える こんな奴じゃ　何も叶わないよ こんな奴じゃ　君に愛されないよ

うるせえ　弱虫でも生きていくんだよ 透明な僕にも　何か出来るだろ 世界は憎らしく　我関せず回る 僕なんかいなくても 止まない争いに　シューティングスターを 優しい人に一縷の幸せを 無慈悲な悲喜劇は続く 僕なんかいなくても　それでも やらなくちゃ　それでも やらなくちゃ　それでも

青春捧げて手にしたメダルを あの人に2、3秒で奪われ 星の数ほどいる主役の群れに 押し潰されて　やがて貝になる だんだんだんだん　心が終わる だんだんだんだん　心が終わる 僕なんか　いてもいなくても同じような気がしている

「夢」も「詐欺」も　同じ顔してる 信じる者は　みんな救われるの 信じきれない僕は救われないの？

知らねえよ　まだ心臓は動いてんだよ 敗戦続きの出来レース　何年目だろう 息絶えたその後も　陽は昇る 僕なんかいなくても　それでも やらなくちゃ　それでも 自分に嫌われても

だんだんだんだん　命が光る だんだんだんだん　命が光る 泥にまみれても　思い過ごしでも キラキラキラキラキラキラ光る 「悪い夢は終わる」　綺麗事にすがる すべて無意味だとしても

うるせえ　弱虫でも生きていくんだよ 透明な僕にも何か出来るだろ 世界は憎らしく　我関せず回る 僕なんかいなくても 止まない争いに　シューティングスターを 優しい人には　どうか　めいっぱいの幸せを 叶わないと分かっていても この世界が終わっていても 僕なんかいなくても　それでも やらなくちゃ　それでも やらなくちゃ　それでも 僕なんかいなくても　それでも

With or Without Me

They trampled on my precious flower Afraid of retaliation, I turn my eyes away My timid self, hiding in an ant's nest Quietly waits for the misfortune to pass Gradually and gradually, my heart becomes dull Gradually and gradually, my heart becomes dull It feels like there's nothing I can do to change this world

Everyone talks about her behind her back But secretly we lend and borrow books They point a gun at my head and test my allegiance I grit my teeth and laugh, “She's so annoying” Gradually and gradually, my heart rots Gradually and gradually, my heart rots It feels like there's nothing I can do to change this world

Zero-degree rain, a fire of expectation extinguished If I'm like this, nothing will ever come true If I'm like this, I'll never be loved by you

Shut up, I'm gonna live even if I'm a wimp I'm invisible, but there's something I can do, right? The world spins hatefully and indifferently Even with or without me I wish for a shooting star to the endless fighting I wish for a ray of happiness to those who are kind This merciless tragicomedy continues Even with or without me - still I have to do something, still I have to do something, still

The medal I dedicated my youth to win Was taken away from me in two or three seconds Crushed by the crowd of countless heroes I eventually turn into a shellfish Gradually and gradually, my heart dies Gradually and gradually, my heart dies It feels like it doesn't matter whether I'm here or not

"Dreams" and "frauds" have the same face Those who believe will all be saved I, who can't believe, will not be saved?

Who cares, my heart's still beating How many years have I continued losing this fixed game? After I've died, the sun will yet rise Even with or without me - still I have to do something, still Even if I'm hated by myself

Gradually and gradually, life begins to shine Gradually and gradually, life begins to shine Even if I'm covered with mud, even if it's all in my head Twinkling and twinkling, life begins to shine “This nightmare will end”, I cling to a fantasy Even if it's all meaningless

Shut up, I'm gonna live even if I'm a wimp I'm invisible, but there's something I can do, right? The world spins hatefully and indifferently Even with or without me I wish for a shooting star to the endless fighting I wish, please, for all the happiness to those who are kind Even if I know it won't come true Even if the world has already ended Even with or without me - still I have to do something, still I have to do something, still Even with or without me - still

Disclaimer: I don't speak the language and copy/pasted the lyrics from a 3rd party so they may be inaccurate.

You just activated ma trap card Activated ma trap card Activated ma trap card Ian purpp he can hit the bass hard 나는 터트려 잭팟 목에 걸래 금메달 말아 손에 쥔 paper Go lIght up, light up A burning, A warning 너의 머릿속 보여 헛짓거리들과 거짓 속임수 개소리 개소리 어리버리 버려 먼지 떨이 벌이 잿더미로 꺼져 떨어

넌 걸렸어 이 함정에 나 지금 걸었어 한 장의 카드 긁어 신용한도 여긴 언제 터질지 모르는 한반도 과부하 지쳤어 내 가사에 담아낸 말들은 나비효과 그딴 거 하나도 없지 좆까 무슨 주의 주의 나는 갈래 도망 제발 집어치워 니 좆같은 개똥철학 남의 것 훔쳐서 도벽만 신경 썼대 근데 병맛 쓸데없는 말은 말어 난 미리 갈어 몸은 사려 느린 시간 봤어 달력 잠깐 정지 랩을 달려 도대체 니가 뭐를 알어 이런 씨발놈아 니가 도대체 뭘 알어 결국 거지같이 벌이 좆도 없이 살아 너도 나도 네모 창밖에선 다 똑같잖아 난 갈 길이 멀어 차비는 없어, 자비도 없어 말은 다 버려, 멀리 더 날어 의미는 필요없어

You just activated ma trap card Activated ma trap card Activated ma trap card Ian purpp he can hit the bass hard 나는 터트려 잭팟 목에 걸래 금메달 말아 손에 쥔 paper Go lIght up, light up A burning, A warning 너의 머릿속 보여 헛짓거리들과 거짓 속임수 개소리 개소리 어리버리 버려 먼지 떨이 벌이 잿더미로 꺼져 떨어

I broke down today in a public setting when someone deliberately attempted to annoy me because they enjoy my reactions when I get upset. My question is, how to deal with such things? Any hexbears who regularly deal with this or have suggestions on how to handle such situations? Am I just fucked with dealing with assholes?

I have to work with this person every day, and I can't wear headphones/ play music/ do things to block them out like I normally would. I just got this job but I'm already to the point where my mental health is being trashed after just a few weeks. Am I SOL? Anyone have anything that could help with this, even if it's suggestions on dealing with over stimulation in a work setting as someone with autism? I keep my ND a secret; no one knows I'm on the spectrum. ...am I overreacting?

Song has been on my mind lately, just wanted to share it.

Lyrics:

Started a war screaming "Peace" at the same time All the corruption, injustice, the same crimes Always a problem if we do or don't Findin' we, nah, we don't have the same rights What is a gun to a man that surrenders? What's it gonna take for someone to defend us? If we all agree that we're equal as people Then why can't we see what is evil?

I can't breathe You're taking my life from me I can't breathe Will anyone fight for me? Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh

How do we cope when we don't love each other? Where is the hope and the empathy? How do we judge off the color? The structure was made to make us the enemy Prayin' for change 'cause the pain makes you tender All of the names you refuse to remember Were somebody's brother or friend Son to a mother that's crying, see

I can't breathe You're taking my life from me I can' breathe Will anyone fight for me?