Playing Cyberpunk 2077 again purely because I am in love with the French girl from the DLC

Sad posting. Long

I'm the type of person who likes to share life moments and nice things. I also love if others do this, I'm the person who never minded people posting their morning coffee vibes on FB.

So we have this family chat. I don't have friends other than work buddies who I don't really socialize with outside work. I am audhd and don't mind the solitude. But, I often share stuff I think might be nice to the fam in our chat. And they most often can't be arsed to even react in any way. They do react to the posts of my younger siblings or the posts my dad makes, but my posting is such a given that it is just there. This aligns with our family dynamic anyway.

My youngest sibling especially who I am sort of a surrogate mom for typically never even looks at what I post, I see him pop online for a split second after I say something and know he didn't even bother to look at it or read it. Often resulting in not answering my questions as well, which is super frustrating for planning anything with him. Question like "so what time you will be here" anf he just doesn't bother, often leaving me hanging for days. It aligns with the way he treats me outside of the chat too. I am always there for him, always have been. (Tbf he is now coming to terms with his undiagnosed adhd, but paradoxically his unmasking is making him even more toxic. Not much masking was ever demanded of him in the first place, but he definitely doesn't see that or how different it has been for us older siblings, both afab.)

Then they all say how nice it is that we are this close and have this active family chat when we do see each other, even though they rarely keep it active.

So it makes me feel sad when it happens. I have tried to stop sharing stuff with them, but turns out I can't. I don't really have any social media accounts to share stuff in anymore and those made me feel even more sad and alienated. I find it to be a bit soulcrushing that my 40 second long tea brewing video that I tried to make very cozy for them is too long and too much to even bother to look at. Me sharing that out of joy of just having nice tea is something I think their middle class brains can't see because in our fam I'm the one who has been piss poor for decades and they haven't. When I can finally enjoy a treat that is probably a given to them, nobody cares. Not that I am saying they should, but why is it so hard to just be kind and nice. You can react to a thing just because its kind, probably feels nice when others do it for you so why not extend that even if you don't care one bit about tea or the autumn leaf colours outside your sisters house that day.

But clearly there is no time to push a button once, because they are too busy watching tiktoks by people they don't even know, doing the grind or gaming. Yet I am expected to look, comment and react to all the posts they make.

Not looking for advice, just venting a bit.

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Lmao meant to take my ADHD med and took a sleeping pill instead this will be fun

I don’t know if it’s intended, but the name “xitter” would be pronounced “shitter” in Portuguese. That’s funny I think.

Would this be a good time to tell you all that this hexbear account is the real successor of ZA/UM and all my posts are spiritual successors to Disco Elysium?

FWIIII ^Huh!^ ^Hooh!^ ^Huh!^ ^Hooh!^ ^Huh!^ ^Hooh!^

Dir. Jean-Luc Godard

At my family’s, they’re all reactionary and it’s funny hearing them talk about how much hotter shit is these days than when they were young but also that climate change is fake

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I just thought of a phrase that instantly puts you on the top of a watchlist

Looking into tech security shit (as an idiot who does not know numbers) is unironically like staring into a yawning void that stares back, and the void says shit like "proprietary firmware blobs" and "feds run the exit nodes". It's nice to get a little perspective on how bad it really is that way.

I FUCKING HATE COPS

Voting for Kamala when the Dems are actively perpetrating a genocide because “Trump would be worse” is voting for Adolf Hitler because Joseph Goebbels would be worse

Mega mega mega THREAD

kill the cracker in your head

And you think commenting in a Hexbear megathread entitles you to plow through the riches of my Emersonian mind?

I watched Coraline on Tubi. I also recently got home for Fall Break.

Is hawk tuah the dumbest and shittiest meme of recent months?

reworked the ending of my First Real Screenplay (i.e. when i came back to writing as a full adult) and also made some other changes, feelin pretty good about things overall and to think i'd quasi disowned this one!

still need to find my next project though. it's been two damn years!

Wild to me how a hurricane will fucking tear miles and miles of a golf course to shreds and instead of being a wake up call into how much of a waste of land that is, the powers that be are shipping in people from all over to assist in the restoration efforts

Death to America

Go to for adding veggies in meals is roasted cabbage and roasted cauliflower, total for both little under 5 dollars but I can add them to any meal afterwards to round out my nutrition. I sometimes go with broccoli too but depends if I can find it, broccoli goes by fast at my nearest store.

Girls be like “I know a place” and then she takes you to a place.

Wish all of my oomfies a great weekend!

I did it Cowbee, I'm done Finally!

Watching the JJ Abrams Star Trek being like did these mfs even watch an episode of TOS before making this

self conscious that i came off unserious on my PSL call like idk they wanted me to have more organizing experience or to ask more questions or have a firmer grounding in theory or ideas about praxis or something. they did give me a resource for a way to start getting involved soon though, maybe it's in my head. sometimes worry my sensitive/anxious temperament would just make me a liability in an organizing context too though

I gotta read more theory, or my partner is gonna become a bigger tankie than me. And before you ask—yes, it is a competition.