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[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 1 points 3 weeks ago (4 children)

Wanted to drop an update and thank you again. I bought some lima beans, rice, an onion, green pepper, mushrooms, and some mustard greens. There's some things I'll change next time, but this will definitely put me in a better position food wise. It's really fucking good!

[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 4 points 3 weeks ago (1 children)

Hell yeah! I'm really happy to see things getting better for you.

[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 1 points 1 month ago (1 children)

I have to be honest - and maybe it's partially a skill issue - but I really can't. I'm running a deficit every week. I'm stuck in rotating CashApp loans. Every week I also end up borrowing 20 to 50 from friends, to be paid back on payday. So wash, rinse, repeat. And I have to visit mutual aid way more often than I'd like. So the honest answer to your question is a negative number, as far as available. As far as what I spend, I don't really know. And I guarantee I'm not spending it smart when I'm stress buying the one meal I get that day because someone came through. So I just get cheap takeout for like 10. Which I know is awful, but I do think it's understandable. I'm trying to do better.

[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 1 points 1 month ago (3 children)

Holy shit, this is perfect. I really fucking appreciate the time and effort you put into this. Thank you so much! I'm saving it to my desktop so when I am ready I can pull it back up easily. I just started a second job, so hopefully within the next month or two I'll finally be able to focus on actually living and saving and budgeting instead of being worse than hand to mouth.

Thank you, again!

[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago (5 children)

I did leave out some important details, I see now.

Unfortunately I've been barely getting by. Assume I have nothing ingredient wise. I have some seasonings, but that's about it. I'll definitely have to build up a supply of essentials. I have some pots and pans. Nothing fancy, but I make do. I have an oven, stove, and microwave.

I'm southeast US. COL around here I feel like is kind of high, but it's no big city. There is a Publix (main grocery around here), an Aldi, Walmart, and Asian market all within a couple miles, which is good because I rely on a bicycle and the bus.

I have no dietary restrictions. I'm trying to move my diet more towards no-meat but I'm not there yet. That said, I welcome meatless suggestions.

[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 3 points 1 month ago

You got me ๐Ÿ˜‚ In my meager defense, I posted this right before bed and had already smoked. I left out a few details I should have included.

[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago

I definitely fixated on specifically mangos for a while last year. They're tasty.

[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago
[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net -1 points 1 month ago

Oh good, I'm too old to be expected to understand wtf this new bit is.

[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 18 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

Antici...

But in all seriousness, I know the feeling you're describing, but I also don't have a word for it. It's not a great feeling.

...pation.

[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 3 points 1 month ago

Hi, I vape. You're not wrong at all. One day I will quit, but for now it's a psychological crutch (and physical addiction) that is less bad for me than the pack+ a day I smoked for like 9 or 10 years. I didn't take your message as an attack, for the record. Just giving context for the rest. I would never intentionally blow vape in anyone's face and have gone to great lengths to avoid doing so. The only exception to this has been with partners and friends where it's an in thing.

Those same people would have probably blown cigarette smoke in your face, but there was such a negative social connotation. For some reason, people who vape seem to think that because it's not smoke they are magically allowed to blow it in your face now and 'look cool '. For some reason not enough people are decking these individuals, so we're not building that negative connotation properly.

Maybe some of these people are too young to even know that blowing cigarette smoke in someone's face is rude? I'm in my 30s. That feels like more benefit of the doubt than I'm willing to give the overwhelming majority.

[โ€“] isame@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago

Jeez, stop bragging. Some of us are lonely.

 

My first bad post. Did I do it right?

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Lemmy App (hexbear.net)
submitted 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) by isame@hexbear.net to c/chat@hexbear.net
 

I haven't gone looking since shortly after I came to Lemmy from the bad place. What apps do y'all use? I'm on Android. I currently use Connect but I'm not particularly pleased nor married to it, it was just the better option that I found at the time.

 

Hopefully this is the right comm. I'm trying to engage more.

I've recently sort of cut a few people who were important to me out of my life. I got tired of being useful and convenient for these people. I am a very attentive, loving, giving friend and I rarely receive what I put out.

That said, it's gotten pretty lonely around these parts. I'd still call myself a baby leftist. I don't know much theory and I've never organized before. I live in a very college focused town. The entire place exists because of the university, it seems. A local friend of mine who has done organizing expressed that it's all libs and college kids - not all bad but I'm 33.

So how does one go about meeting people that may have similar views? I don't really even ascribe a label to myself. Leftist, anti-capitalist, sometimes I'll tell people I'm a commie for simplicity's sake.

I'm just tired of feeling so alone. I'm making big changes in my life for the better, and I finally have space to do things besides just survive. I bought one of my remaining friends a gift this week. I've never had the money to really even consider spending on something that isn't a necessity or at least help keep me sane (weed). I'm even going to start a small mutual aid portion of my savings and I'm really excited to start helping others.

Sorry, I know this is a little scattered. I'm in a weird spot in my life and I'm lacking good people to talk to. So here I am, talking into the void and hoping one of you beautiful people answers. I should probably use this fancy insurance I'm paying so much for and go to therapy too, but for now this will do.

So, how do you meet people? How do you fight off the crushing loneliness that comes with actually caring about the world and where it's going, and the fact that we're all pretty solidly fucked?

 

I had an unexpected expense come up and now I'm trying to figure out food for the next five days. I don't really have an amount in mind, but anything helps. 20 or so should do it.

PayPal is sgriffith0891 at geemail

Thank you, comrades!

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Groceries (hexbear.net)
submitted 7 months ago* (last edited 7 months ago) by isame@hexbear.net to c/mutual_aid@hexbear.net
 

I'm finally starting to get caught up on my bills. I had to pay back a few loans from friends, but my life is finally starting to look financially viable. I do need some help this week with a little bit of groceries. 30 should do wonderfully.

PayPal is sgriffith0891 at gmail.com

Thank you!

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submitted 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago) by isame@hexbear.net to c/chat@hexbear.net
 

So last week I broke my wrist. I naively thought work would cover my wages because I am full-time, have full benefits, and work for a fortune whatever company. It's a fucking grocery store.

Turns out I have to submit a form to get paid. No one told me this, so I did not get paid today. I was going to be late on rent because I don't make enough, but now I don't think I can make rent at all. I'm so close to just getting in contact with some travelers I know and checking out. I gave it a go right? But I don't want to. I want to live a quiet life with a little apartment, no kids. Just let me have a studio and a fulfilling job.

I take a lot of pride in my work. It's simple. I'm a produce clerk. But I work for a big company, and they do as they do. Nothing is good enough. Nothing we do is good enough. So my pride is gone. I come in, work, go home. I do not care. I wanted to be management. No way in hell.

I'm exhausted, comrades. I don't know what to do.

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Pride Gear? (hexbear.net)
 

This may be the wrong comm. Sorry if it is.

I recently misplaced my pride lanyard, along with my keys. The keys have been replaced. I'd like to buy something pansexual-themed, as that is how I identify. Does anyone have any good sources for such things? I found a seller on Etsy that sold chainmaille pieces (I used to make them), but my order was cancelled. I assume the shop is defunct. A lanyard isn't necessary, but something subtle that I can wear at a major grocery chain would be good. We're allowed a little personal expression.

Shipping in the US is a requirement.

 

I've got a friend coming over in a couple days and we decided we were in the mood to watch some old fashioned sci-fi. Or, something newer would work as well. I'd like to find something with a leftist bent, but I'm unsure where to start, or what's out there. I've never been a big movie buff.

Suggestions?

 

Just need a little help between checks. I could use some not-ramen, and I need some hair ties.

Thank you all! It's raise season so with any luck I'll have to post here less!

CashApp: $sgriffith0891 PayPal: sgriffith0891 at geemail dot com

 

Won't say where. But I saw one of you fuckers in public today. Trenchcoat with hammer and sickle patches, free Palestine shirt, long hair and shit kickers.

I was preoccupied, but hi comrade!

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The N Word (hexbear.net)
submitted 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago) by isame@hexbear.net to c/chat@hexbear.net
 

Good attention grabber huh? Don't worry, I don't use it and I'm not trying to say I should.

I recently hung out with my neighbors. They really wanted to smoke me out. I'm 32 living in what is essentially off campus student apartments. 4 bed 4 bath, etc.

They're all Hispanic in this apartment (above me). 2 are from South America - I forget which country - and 2 are from South Florida.

They throw around the N word, never pejoratively. As the only white guy in the room I'm not saying shit.

Question is, is this okay? As a white guy idk.

One of them also said the f slur for gay people and immediately apologized - 'sorry if that offended you '. That one I did tell him he knew it was wrong because he apologized immediately. I have a love always wins bracelet and a rainbow lanyard, very visible.

I'm 10+ years older than these kids. I'm honestly trying to figure out if this is baked-in or if they're just dumb kids and maybe I can be a positive influence. If it's baked-in then I'll just peace out. I don't know the culture and don't want to judge from an uninformed perspective.

 

I don't mean to unnecessarily gender this discussion. Gender here doesn't matter. But I'm going to use gendered words as they fit the context. I want everyone's opinion.

My dad died from bronchial cancer two days before my 12th birthday. I had to learn how to be a 'man' from my ill mother.

What I want to know is, if you had to import some wisdom to preteen me, about the fundamentals of life, what would it be?

I've barely learned to shave (and prefer a beard anyway). What can you teach me Hexbear?

I'm 32 by the way. I'm just curious.

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