lil_tank

Follow-up to this thread : https://hexbear.net/post/3488157

Many thanks to everyone who helped me by writing incredible introspective, analytical and supportive things under the first thread. Some of you have been optimistic about the outcome and I'm sorry to tell you that it will not go anywhere. I feel the need to write a post for closure.

The initial situation was that the event we first met at was supposed to take place again at some point. So I thought it would be better to patiently wait so I can naturally get to know her a little more without the inherent intrusiveness of contacting her. I was however informed that this event wouldn't take place.

In two months I had time to stabilise my mood and reflect, but I traded my fiery heart for a depressed brain in the process. I just really needed an update, or the wierd longing would never end. So I concluded I had no choice but to send her a message.

Result : no answer.

So, yeah, looks like it's over fellas. And that's alright, I'm at peace. It's good, I know now, no more longing. I would've preferred if we became friends because she's a very talented and interesting person from what I know, but I'm happy with what I have. Sadness is normal, everything is good, I'm moving on.

The only way it could be worse would be that she's a hexbear I'd be so cooked lmaoooo. (My dear, if you're reading this, please be my Kim, I'll be your Harrier)

As a resident of a vassal state I'm locked in a bubble of naïve liberal media coverage treating Democrats as the left. I realised that despite how evident it is for everyone here that the Dems have become increasingly rightwing with Biden and Harris, I've never found a source that bothered demonstrating it by compiling evidence.

Of course search engines are being completely useless at this, just shoveling endless trash from British and US corporate media

I'm not sure I should start this conversation and I've been rewriting this a lot lol. But I could use some relating and opinions from fellow internet leftists

Ok so, to keep it really simple: I happened to share a meal with somebody I really liked. I have interacted casually (no flirting) for about a dozen minutes total and we exchanged contact because of shared-interests (not dating)

Now my brain is fried

I'm thinking about her way too much and it gives be bad vibes, she probably has no idea and I can't imagine the sheer horror of realising that someone is thinking this much about you after so little interaction.

I want to be a well-behaved straight (kinda bi but that's beyond the point) guy, I'm trying to be an ally to the feminist cause, so, failing this spectacularly at behaving normally in relation to women disgust me. I know I can't remove the patriarchy from my body but I damn wish I could.