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[โ€“] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 10 points 4 days ago* (last edited 4 days ago) (2 children)

sorry
spoiler self harm/si/just being unhinged I want to kill myself. It's hopeless. I can't imagine ever being happy. Why fucking live in suffering. My whole life is just suffering and trying to distract myself. That's not good enough. All fucking night I've wanted to rip my leg open. Why do I continually put myself through this shit.

We're coming up on five years of trying to fight this shit. Five years of trying to get better. Of trying to even imagine a happy life. Of understanding what I want and can reach for. And I haven't found anything. My brain is literally just broken. Actual dogshit.

I will never be happy. I am not capable of doing what will make me happy.

Fucking "survival instinct". Such complete bullshit. I know I will never be happy, normal, I will always hate myself and be hated. So literally why can't I bring myself to do it. Do I want to go through another embarrassing, awful five years? Just fucking, putz around hoping I figure my shit out? I don't want to do that.

I can't get better. Why do I have to do it myself. I wish I'd just die in my sleep already.

I hate being a burden. All I do anymore is go from place to place, person to person whing about how I'm in pain. Dump all my sad shit on the nearest poor fucker who has to listen to me. I'm an anchor around everyone's neck.

I'm such shit. I can't do anything. I don't even know what my problem is. Why can't I get even basic shit together.

The kindest thing would literally just be shoot me in my sleep. Life sucks, it's going to keep sucking, my mental issues are going to keep tormenting me forever. This isn't living. Literally what difference does it even make if I'm dead. Not like I'm doing anything with this "gift" of life. Fucking waste. Why am I a wasteful, unappreciative shithead. I should kill myself just for that.

even worse self harm stuffI want to cut myself so bad. It's been days of urges slowly building. I want to see blood. Feel the rush. Holy shit the rush. Honest to god better then drugs.
To anyone wondering, yes I napped, yes I felt like this right after, yes it's been fucking hours of this while being unable to sleep. Please make the misery stop.

[โ€“] ashinadash@hexbear.net 12 points 4 days ago

Y'know "being a burden" is not a real thing, else I'd be an even heavier "anchor" to certain people... I'm sorry you feel this way though, given you haven't and can't really make the progress you want wrt gender it's not surprising to feel this way, but you don't deserve to turn it on yourself meow-hug Wouldn't be as much of a problem if you could get what you need on that front...

[โ€“] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 11 points 4 days ago* (last edited 4 days ago) (1 children)

Care-Comrade

spoilerI guarantee you will start to feel better once you start HRT or socially transitioning, even just getting out of your parents house when you're ready will probably help you.

This feeling won't last forever, it's probably going to feel like you've been holding your breath for 5 years and finally can take another breath when you start. Transitioning isn't a cure-all but it's definitely the kind of thing that can help anguish and mental health a lot.

You're worthy of living and worthy of help and care. It gets better, I swear

cuddle Thank you Terminal, that helped. I hope I can get to one of those things.