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Vent here if you want.
(lemmygrad.ml)
You (collective) are here for me so much ^whether^ ^you^ ^want^ ^or^ ^not^, so I want to make sure you know I'm here for you too. If you have any vents and don't want to make a thread for them, I'm here. :3
I have a massive pit in my stomach after getting rejected from a large art project. I wasn't sure I wanted it (massive commitment) and I only realised after try-outs and I felt I had it in the bag, and I allowed myself to dream and plan and now I'm where I was before try-outs but everything feeks so bleak and gray and far away and I am very very very very sad and frustrated and tired. This feels not just like a massive setback, but like an immense opportunity that I've missed and I missed it in large part because I did not arrive at a realisation in good time and so I didn't focus on making myself super duper presentable and now I hate myself and I don't know where to go from here because it all seems so... Empty. Pointless. Hollow. I dunno.
I feel you so much after the job offer decided to pass on me, expect I knew it would be life changing, but tried not to hope too much, and once they passed on me, I realized how much it would've meant for me. I don't think I could've done anything better. I just am not good enough, I guess...
I hope you find something else to fill the emptiness. Sorry for a late response. I got crushed by the job rejection and then kinda just existed but barely.