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hate it when the site calls me out

Microplastics fuck with your hormones so I think it's fair to say everyone on Earth is on HRT

I'm still thinking about what I'm going to be doing shortly after I'm done the 2 year return to service agreement up here in my home town

Long term, I do want to get something called an NP (masters degree, nurse practitioner, you get to prescribe with doctors supervision, they end up taking on a lot of care on more remote and rural areas cause we just don't have enough family GPs so it's like an NP is in town and a GP helps remotely that one and a few others). I do want to get into family medicine - it's a specific stream: neonate, family, adults - and I was hoping to focus on trans healthcare in particular up here where there is literally none. The closest is a 5 hour drive and he's retiring in short order but holding on purely for his trans patients...

I think I'd need some mental health nursing practice hours for my long term interests. When we did mental health in nursing school, it was really hard - I ended up identifying a lot with the patients and I'd get pissed we didn't let them smoke when they wanted or let them roam a little more freely, I even yelled at the nursing staff about it lol. I'm not looking forward to inpatient mental health care but I don't know what else to do, I still have like 8 months to think about it and look anyway. Otherwise, I could just keep working with kids. Pediatrics emergency, pediatrics ICU, maybe public health (lots of vaccinations and well baby visits etc).

When I said I wanted ED this is not what I meant

Who up transing their gender

There's something that I'm beginning to find really fun to say...

::: spoiler my own maladaptive processes

I hate my brain sometimes. I tried to express to someone who called me pretty that they were also attractive and was hit with overwhelming waves of feeling predatory for even finding someone attractive. I hate my brain. Idk if i even want to fuck this person, i think i just want to be their friend, but i still feel predatory for even finding them attractive in the first place, let alone that i expressed that to them.

I hate my internalized transphobia.

I love winter, had such a nice soft blue morning glow with a gentle snowfall while I was walking to school today. Just wish I had more fem winter clothes to wear so I can be as pretty as everything else.

I Friday Rice

the nerdy friend from Jesse is trans now?

"wow, a nickel deposit! how exciting" - no one has ever said this while playing space engineers

I swear to god the two people at this coffee place are dating and they are both some of the most attractive people I've ever seen

I am smoothing

Been hearing that trans people have been getting bullied on RedNote. Is this true? I’ve been on that app for a year and never really noticed any strong anti-queer behavior compared to places like instagram

Work fuckin sucked this weekend, charge duties, way too many patients, staff calling out and no one picking up, sicker kids than the last week, bleh. Glad it's over

45 minutes wasted so far today from my coworkers not being able to weigh ingredients properly

tiktok taught me that it's okay to be weird

(but unironically some of the trans influencers there helped push me to realize I'm trans. gonna miss that timesink 🥲)

old-fashioned with shrimple syrup