hello

I have never been able to deal with anything. I've always been weak and pathetic. I don't think there's anything that could have gone better for me, to make me not turn out like this.

I just don't want to feel like this anymore. Why can't I be free. Why is dying just... Nothing. There is no bliss, no great life, it's just over. It's just suffering my whole existence and then it's over. Why don't I get to not suffer. :::

🎀 Dresspost #8 is up 🎀

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screampost

Hawk Tuah

Been feeling down a few days because of some kinda bad decisions I've made, but heard a song I really love today and it grounded me back to earth a bit. I'm not the same person I was pre-transitioning, I can handle a setback or two without shutting down completely

There's such sweet adorable guys in this world

Caves of Qud is so much fun!

No one has commented on my piercings at work. I think I could walk in there wearing a dress and people would be too polite to say anything to my face. I'm glad that I'm not getting aby mean comments, but the complete silence on the changes so far has kind of been annoying.

Next week: nails in public.

Also, consultation with the medspa for hair removal went well. Going to be a lot cheaper than the cosmetic surgery place. I also got a quote from Milan and I am creeped out by how persistent they are with the sales. It's way too expensive and I don't want to commit to a lifetime package.

New Mega 😁

Sup?

(cat reading newspaper)

I should get better at baking

Gave cookies to the x-ray ppl and orthopedic place that helped me with the broken hand and they were all so kind and appreciative

Wish I was a good baker instead of just adequate but I thought the cookies turned out well all things considered

CW: Dysphoria been pestering me, also potential harassment hard to say

Had a dream featuring a cute robot lady and she kept threatening to bite me, but like in a threatening way and I just kept swooning for her

Well, the trans support group I was hoping to start attending isn't having a virtual meeting tonight since the subject is first aid (which makes sense for in person demonstrations), but because I still have the sniffles (and it's an hour drive), so I will have to wait until next week.

Gonna have to remember to ask my therapist if I was able to adequately tonally convey pissed the fuck off while maintaining femme voice