okay. with the encouragement of multiple people, i decided to say something:
pee pee
wait, fuck! no!
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okay. with the encouragement of multiple people, i decided to say something:
pee pee
wait, fuck! no!
D: One day you will be able to say something, I believe in you
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Was going to call you pee pee girl, but do you want the pee pee girl bit to stop? Wanna make sure I'm not making you uncomfortable, so if you want it to stop that's fine. Or if you just think its unfunny and want it to stop that's cool too
lol you're just fine :) i don't mind it and i honestly like the attention
Cool :3
Ah who needs girl clothes when you can just listen to shoegaze all day long
All clothes are girl clothes when you're a girl and you're the one wearing them
Yes and all bodies are girl bodies when you're a girl wearing one. No need for hormones!
I mean I wouldn't disagree with that if someone says they're a girl and aren't on hrt but I didn't mean to hit a nerve and become a small crab being destroyed by a laser from a big crab, sorry
What about listening to shoegaze in girl clothes?
Fuck you're right ok I'm gonna go shopping this week
I fucking love my trans comrades so much
can i please say something
I wouldn't know, they never let me say my X sentence in that regular language I defined, hmpf!~
I have you marked down for saying something on January 18th, at 6pm martian time
That's not how Martian timekeeping works...
My mom says if you have nothing pee pee to say you shouldnโt say it at all
I think we should make a tracha-lite (tracha but less chaotic/probably with a spray bottle to keep users like me contained). There's been at least a few people (4~ come to mind) I've seen and talked to who said normal tracha can be overwhelming or intimidating.
I know we talked about that a bit in the tracha mods chat, but figure that tossing the idea here would probably also help it not be drowned out by other chats (might make a post or idk later as well, idk)
Overwhelming is an understatement. Unless I pay attention to it constantly, I couldn't possibly hope to keep up with it. I actually had to disable notifications from element to my watch cause it was draining the battery.
Yeah, my battery was dropping by the minute.
I might join if theres a more chill tracha, id at least check it out and see if it works for my brain
Yeah, having more than one room for parallel conversations would be nice.
I would like to express interest. I keep trying to look at tracha but it really is so overwhelming. I would love a sort of tracha-lite if it was manageable
They weren't lying, this progesterone really do be making me eepy.
Also my hair is like, ridiculously soft suddenly. Like almost overnight, even my girlfriend noticed it. I'm definitely not imagining things and I haven't changed anything in my hair care. Idk where this came from but I'm very happy about it.
::: spoiler life is weird Meds have been helping... But still have all the (lack of) executive capacity, and seriously feeling the avoidant side of myself, getting very anxious about bringing people further into my life. Ive been so social lately, i feel like i may be overdoing it, and im trying to deal with that without overcorrecting and cutting all my friends and new aquaintances out of my life for the next 3 months
Don't burn yourself out, any true friends will understand if you need to take a step back and have some alone time
Who wants to see my tatas?
I actually have free time again, what a concept! So, I've returned to creating character portraits. I want to compare two I don't believe I've shown on here. The first uses the older software, and the second one the newer software. The second one also meets the 16-color requirement, while the first does not. There's also a pixel on each that needs fixing. Other than that, which one do you all think looks better?
Also adding a bonus one, made with the newer software
Bonus round 2: Luna "Castro" redone
the surgeon I was going with backed out because he doesn't feel confident enough for my specific case yet. he said he would try to research and contact me again in a few weeks to see if he found any leads for where I go
cw: suicide, hopelessness, venting
I really want to kill myself. the drive is so real. I tried to tell him I accept that there's uncertainty on outcomes and complications and even having a phallus alone would help me so much, but that wasn't enough.
exhausting every way you can think of trying to convince someone to take a chance and pull you from the misery only for him to kindly and firmly refute each is difficult. feeling completely backed into a corner with nothing but acceptance that this grim era will continue without the hope I was holding onto, it really is difficult
I just want someone to help me
Is there any chance of finding a different doctor? Preferably one that isn't a cis man, they seem to stand in the way of any trans healthcare you need to pursue. Luckily enough all the people I have worked with in gender care have been women, and they haven't been a roadblock to me in any way. We'll see what happens once I pursue bottom surgery though.
Please don't give up. Keep looking. Even if it can't happen now, I'm sure someone will be able to help you.
I spent years putting together my wardrobe. If I start hormones, are they still gonna fit??
Oh shit, this is bad! Will my new fleshy bits be contained??
You'll have time. The changes aren't instantaneous and take a good while. But, if all goes well, yes, you'll have to replace it eventually.
Bad news, they might not fit because good news your body is gonna change shape
I had to toss most of my old boy clothes (way too tight in the chest and ass now). I don't fit some of the clothes I got earlier in my transition as well :(
My doctor: get your cholesterol under control and then we can raise your dose
Okay but I'm too depressed to have be able to stick with a diet can we just try increasing the estrogen and manage everything from there?
I unilaterally decided to up my dose my just taking more. Only up to the minimum recommended dose for two weeks now I think. I haven't felt better in ages and finding the motivation to eat healthy, get exercise, and socialize, has never been greater. We really need to drill into the medical community how important HRT is and to get up to an effective dose asap. Maybe it's a placebo but it feels real and the effects are real so w/e.
looking in the mirror and seeing a visibly fucked up clocky trans girl, which is fair because i am a visibly fucked up clocky trans girl