I'm looking into starting DIY, I really just can't wait any longer. However, I am absolutely terrified of needles. I won't be able to shoot myself up with it. I'm looking into the forms of estrogen, and it appears that I can buy the form used for estradiol pills. But I'm finding very little information on DIY that isn't focused on injections. I'm thinking about making a water solution and just taking it out of a dropper, but I know I'd need a preservative to keep it safe for a long time.

Yeah, no drinking just high on life but goddamn this is shit that I wish I did when I was drunk. I have been a complete fucking menace to the asshole drivers I deal with as a pedestrian this week. I live in a very car dependant area, and very frequently get verbally harassed or almost ran over. Normally I just shrug it off because I just don't want to care, but now it's like I have to react. In the first kitchen I ever worked at, there was a game of just throwing shit. It was a competition to see who could throw the most accurate throw. The best one was a line cook threw a fry into my shirt pocket from 30 feet away while I wasn't even paying attention. So I've been training how to throw quickly and accurately like my ability to slack at work depended on it.

Was walking to the convenience store the other day for some pouches and someone called me the f slur. At the exact same time, I found a block of wood that had been littered onto the sidewalk, so I threw it at their back window. Yesterday, an asshole was honking and screaming for someone in front of her to turn on a red while I was trying to cross. So I threw a few fries from the dinner I was bringing home into her window. What does this achieve? Nothing really, but it feels really good to throw things at assholes. Today some asshole in a BMW almost hit me while I was crossing the street, and I seriously regret having nothing good to throw.

How are your nights going? Doing anything fun?

My favorite Pokemon youtuber released a Melee video. I didn't know I needed this until now

Recently, I've cut down on the amount of weed I consume. What used to be a multiple times a day habit has now turned into just hitting my roommate's cart once every couple days. Generally speaking, I feel better now that I'm out of the habit. However, I keep waking up throughout the night because of nightmares. I even hit the cart right before I went to bed, but I still woke up at 3 this morning unable to go back to sleep because of nightmares.

I'd be less confused if I wasn't on meds specifically to stop nightmares, they've been quite effective since I've been on them. But it's been awful the past few nights. I'm not sure what to do about it because it's really disrupting my sleep. Any tips?

For me, my comfort channels right now are all of Jimothy Cool's channels, and Shortcat. Jimothy makes Pokemon videos, Shortcat makes Mario Kart videos.

I mentioned Mac Miller in another thread and it made me think about his posthumous album. It's the only good one I can think of off the top of my head, but they really knocked it out of the park. The people who finished the album clearly cared deeply about him and didn't want to just ride his name into the ground for cash. They didn't even want to overshadow him, with details such as uncredited background vocals from Ariana Grande on one of the tracks.

The album also kicks ass, and can consistently make me cry with songs like Good News and Everybody. His death also makes the lyrics of the album hit so much harder, like I said Good News makes me bawl my eyes out on the right day.

Are there any other posthumous albums that were this good?

My go to reference for this is Search Party. The first season is the most engaging TV I've ever seen, the second season is still pretty damn good, but then the show got picked up by HBO and became total shit for 2 seasons. Like god I fucking hated season 4 of that show.

As far as movies go, I gotta go with Shrek the Third. 1,2 & 4 are all great, but what the fuck was 3?

I've never really looked into Zimbabwe and its revolution, but I'm interested in it right now. Y'all have any books or articles to read?

Extra points for the Mao references in the song