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It sucks enough that I've lost my friend, it sucks even more that I still have to work with him, and it sucks even more that even Hextube doesn't seem to be a place to turn anymore. It sucks the most that I can't even feel my own emotions because of excessive SSRIs.

i tried to post this to c/mentalhealth and it blocked me for some reason

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[–] corgiwithalaptop@hexbear.net 21 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Sorry to hear this comrade. I don't know what to say, so maybe sharing a sentiment will help in some way -

I lost a number of friends in 2023 for, well, lots of reasons. Most bridges seem to irreparably burned. While I dunno why the MH comm stopped you from posting, im glad youre talking about it. For me, when im not doing the best, I shut down and wall myself off. So it's encouraging to see you being candid.

Sending all the love in the world Care-Comrade

[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 20 points 1 year ago

I'm doing better now after a little bacardio

i ended up falling for my friend but he already has a partner, then we got too close, then he (probably rightfully) cut me off

now i have to handle being so alone (never been in a relationship) and i also have to handle seeing him feet away from me in the break room every day while we ignore each other

fucking hell i'm 28 now jesus christ

[–] FourteenEyes@hexbear.net 17 points 1 year ago (1 children)

You're super cool and I always love your posts and your doing a book club inspired me to start my own meow-hug

[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 14 points 1 year ago (1 children)

i need to actually finish that book club, speaking of

[–] FourteenEyes@hexbear.net 13 points 1 year ago

denji-just-like-me k-pain but with Unmasking Autism

need to go through and make more notes and have a post and post it with the Create Post button

[–] Yurt_Owl@hexbear.net 16 points 1 year ago (1 children)

It sucks the most that I can't even feel my own emotions because of excessive SSRIs.

I know exactly how this feels and it sucks big time.

[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 13 points 1 year ago (1 children)

thanks bud

yeah a lot of pretty sad shit has happened in my life and i haven't been able to cry once

[–] Yurt_Owl@hexbear.net 12 points 1 year ago

Being unable to cry is a unique torment. Maybe instead some silly videos to take your mind of it? https://youtu.be/opCvBzYXyd0

[–] context@hexbear.net 15 points 1 year ago (1 children)

It sucks enough that I've lost my friend, it sucks even more that I still have to work with him

i seem to be in the same boat right now. shit sucks.

heart-sickle

[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 14 points 1 year ago

glad we're not alone

it became a whole mess, at least in my head

i wish i could tell him that i love him, but i can't even talk to him

we can't be together

i had to talk to him today for work-related reasons and he just looked at me with the most terrified eyes

it hurts to see him in fear, it hurts that i can't comfort him, it hurts that i can't be with him, it hurts that i can't hurt

dunno why i'm drinking again when i was saying today that drinking can only make a bad situation worse, which is exactly what is happening right now

[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 15 points 1 year ago

i learned a new rule about drinking

if you don't move it feels worse

if you exercise it feels better

maybe i need to try bacardio

[–] ElChapoDeChapo@hexbear.net 15 points 1 year ago

meow-hug

Wish I could do something wtyp, life should be easier

[–] HexbearGPT@hexbear.net 14 points 1 year ago

Sending you a hug. It will get better than this. And stick around to see what happens in the world. We are not in control of it but we can watch it and wait in case something cool happens that we can participate in like a revolution.

Hang in there. We all have hard times. They suck. But they do end. Eventually.

[–] blight@hexbear.net 14 points 1 year ago
[–] Melonius@hexbear.net 13 points 1 year ago

I'm sorry you're having to go through this and that you can't find solace in some of the places you used to. I hate how sadness saps the joy from things you thought you could count on.

[–] Aru@lemmygrad.ml 12 points 1 year ago (1 children)
[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 16 points 1 year ago (2 children)
[–] Aru@lemmygrad.ml 13 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (1 children)

Yeah dumb question on my part, I don't know shit about you, name things you want to talk about

Nvm I'm terrible at this I'll let someone else talk

[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 12 points 1 year ago (1 children)

dumb questions are cool, it's the though that counts

i wish i could tell him that i love him but i know why i can't

[–] Aru@lemmygrad.ml 10 points 1 year ago

I know that feeling, used to know a guy now he doesn't even reapond to me

[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 11 points 1 year ago (1 children)

currently 2 shots deep listening to joy division and hugging a blanket

[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 10 points 1 year ago

I want the strength and support to continue to do the right thing. I want to mourn the loss of my friendship

[–] PointAndClique@hexbear.net 12 points 1 year ago

Idk what you're going through but sorry to hear that you're hurting meow-hug please accept my emoji hug.

meow-hug I wish I had something to say but this emotes all i got

[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 11 points 1 year ago

It's really nice to wake up and see the outpouring of love from Hexbear (and beyond, I see you Lemmygrad users). I'll be OK eventually but it still hurts right now. Thank you for all the kind words. kitty-cri

[–] Mardoniush@hexbear.net 10 points 1 year ago

You're cool and good and people like you deserve good people around you.

[–] LarsAdultsen@hexbear.net 9 points 1 year ago

FWIW, as someone with zero initiative, I really admire your courage in trying. Hang in there bud, you've got the ball rolling now!

[–] Zoift@hexbear.net 7 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Sorry to hear Wtyp, matters of the heart are never easy to sort out, but it doesn't sound like you did anything wrong. You shot your shot and as bad as rejection is, its not worse than unrequited pining. You'll find someone out there, I know it sounds hollow right now, but there truely are a multitude of compatible souls for everyone. You've always been a friendly voice in chat, the least i can do is return the favor. DM me if you eber need to talk. meow-hug

[–] Ocommie63@lemmygrad.ml 7 points 1 year ago

. You are a great person, and will be remembered as such!!!

[–] btbt@hexbear.net 5 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

You always seem to post something interesting and insightful whenever I see one of your posts, Hexbear wouldn’t be the same without you comrade

[–] MaxOS@hexbear.net 5 points 1 year ago
[–] red_stapler@hexbear.net 4 points 1 year ago

Sorry to hear that comrade, I know things will improve for you just as sure as Kissinger is dead. live-kissinger-reaction