I wish I could just jump forward 10 years and have already worked through all this hard stuff. But no I gotta slog through it and barely make any progress ever.

I have been wondering about the emotional effects of HRT everyone has ben talking about, because it's been 2 months, and either I haven't noticed the changes, or they are too subtle to be perceived by me. I feel very much the same, and still also very much in control of my emotions. Except in extraordinary circumstances(lack of sleep, lack of food, etc). I did put in a lot of effort into my emotional control over the years, since it used to be quite bad, but I thought I would still feel something.

What concretly do people mean, when they talk about "emotional effects"?

I have noticed some physical changes though, so it is working in some regards.

ATTENTION: Skirt go spinny. That is all.

lets get this baby up to 500

When I was a (very cis) teen I was constantly daydreaming about being a streamer girl and I even had a username planned and everything. I grew out of my desire to be a streamer (thank god), but at least I'm doing better at the "girl" part of it than I ever thought I would.

would it be a bad idea to get a bird feeder or 4 for my balcony if there's the bird flu thing going around? ty.....

thoughts on going to an all ages outdoor general pride event wearing pasties and a sheer/mesh top? if it wasn't clear the concern are the children or whatever

Does anyone know about HRT in Cuba? All I can find is that it's free, there's a DIY scene, and there are government shortages. I want to know if the age of puberty is equal, whether you need real-life hazing, etc.

Edit: OK I did a pretty thorough search of Cuban websites and online scientific journals. I don't think this information exists online. Damn you Cubans! Stop touching grass!!

So what's a normal dose for Estradiol Valerate? I feel like they gave me a pretty high dose? Either way letsssss gooooooooooo! I have to wait until tomorrow to get it but I'm already so excited.

Settling into my new place and enjoying our backyard that the previous tenants turned into a little veggie field.

Put myself together a cute little gardening outfit from the clearance aisle (jeans were too short but otherwise perfect). My partner was gassing me up and even I sorta thought i looked cute despite not shaving for a few days.

Unfortunately my back is a fuck and I can't work for longer than an hour or two.

The silver lining is that my eyes and lashes are so goddamn pretty actually. When I have my bangs properly styled I really like my face from the nose up. It's the one thing keeping me going right now.