I think you are overthinking it. You have E enathenate - find a dosage and stick to it for like 2 or 3 months and get blood tests. Try starting at like 3.5 mg a week. At the 3 month mark get some blood panels done. See where your T and your E is, and go from there.

If your E is sticking around 200 as expected, and your T is under 50, you're good. Go by blood tests. Maybe you can get a t blocker at that point if you feel your T is kinda high. But hold off on the t blocker for now.

Remember this is a marathon not a sprint. Keep it simple and keep it consistent.

Going to planned parenthood they should do blood work for ya

Im not keen on wading into a thread with too much personal experience, but i dont take blockers because of how bad they were for me mentally. a doctor, and myself were keen to get my hormone levels within 'normal female range', which is very silly if you think about it.

I was depressed, lethargic, on the lowest blocker dose. Friends i know have suffered liver damage from blockers in high doses. (i cant remember what i was taking, it was not spiro)

if you do take blockers you just need to be stimulating bloodflow to your genitals, i was not told this, it took a while recover after i stopped taking them, it was really painful

I take 4mg of estradiol orally a day, its been half a decade, i feel the way i want to, i dont pass, its not important to me (anymore), other people presuming Im cis feels safer and more comfortable.

I know it can feel like it at times, but its not a race

diy E monotherapy injections

Seem good. Injections are the best method and injection monotherapy is often sufficient without needing a separate T blocker.

was aiming to suppress my T fast but i think it happened already

I'd agree with that.

Have you been able to do any blood tests?

If you are experiencing penis atrophy and want to avoid it and you haven't been able to do any blood tests, I think the cream/gel would be a great place to start and see how that goes, assuming it's possible to access in the USA. You could also try that in combination with a reduced E2 dose and see where that gets you.

and there’s some evidence that E1 helps feminize

I went down the rabbit hole of E1 a couple of years ago and didn't find any evidence at all. What did you find? If I were you, I'd just stick (ha ha ha) to the injections.