filing my nails with a dremel; dunno if that's butch or if I'm just a mess.

(these are not mutually exclusive)

hair so long it's on the back of my neck now and it feels really nice :)

of the many, many problems of dating while trans, one of the least consequential but most frustrating ones is looking at your dating app profile and realizing you need to update all your pics because you look noticeably different now even though you just took those pics 3 months ago

Been thinking of attempting a habañero-peach chili

wait a minute, peaches aren't citrus

Voice instructor said my nails are fierce, so that's my one good thing I can hold on to for today

Damn! My guess were bananas.

Came out to a friend (who I've known since high school) the other day as trans. Wasn't exactly hiding it, but just hadn't made it explicit either. He thought I had already come out, so gaslighting friends into thinking you already come out at some point can work.

Was basically the first time coming out by actually just saying "I'm trans". Despite knowing I'm trans for like 3 years and tomorrow or the next day being my HRT 1-year anniversary. Tomorrow sharing the date (April 11th), the following day (April 12th) being 365 days after. Which is February 71st, or 2/71 (e is 2.71...)... so I choose e day to be my celebration day.

looking through some recent selfies and good fucking god, they weren't kidding when they said HRT makes you look like your mom. If I wasn't so clockably trans I'd almost look like a clone of her

fuck reddit. i made a new account (because the current one is already permabanned) so that i can message a recently homeless trans kid in russia and it suspends it almost instantly

love me some gender drugs

Hung out with a few friends from work today. Was mostly nice but def felt like the odd one out at times. Of course, I was the only... "male bodied" person in the group and only out to one of them. She was also the one who said I'd be the person out of us to sit in the passenger seat of the Uber because the driver was a man. I guess I get it since I still look like a guy, but didn't feel great though.

I hope my HRT starts working better soon. I don't want to play act at being a girl and that's what it feels like I'd be doing if I tried to socially transition in the state I'm in.

True, peaches do taste good

started taking a higher dose of B-12 and i feel like a brand new person

"Soft-Launching" my neopronouns on one of my Discord servers by updating my profile but not saying anything... maybe a little cowardly, but we'll see how things go

Bad dreams

Accidentally outed myself the other day when someone asked another trans woman if laser hurt and I laughed