I think I may have just cooked up some new type of sex toy/BDSM wear but I have no idea if it already exists but it feels so obvious that I'm pretty sure it does but I've never heard of it...

I'll post MS paint doodles of it later after work

EDIT: made a post in the new general megathread

Had to remind an ex that we will remain exes for the foreseeable future, that sucks.

Wearing swords should come back in fashion. My outfit would look much more complete with a smallsword.

Was looking for a PCP now that I am off the student health plan and working as a post-doc, and I got lucky. The one PCP that's accepting clients at the closest (good) in-network clinic notes an interest/specialty in LGBTQ+ primary care. I don't know if I need to switch my GAC from Planned Parenthood, but it does make me hopeful that they won't be in the dark or bigoted about trans health care.

EDIT: Well, that PCP isn't available until June, and in fact it doesn't seem like any PCP is available in the clinic system to establish care until April, when I will probably be moving out of town. So fuck me I guess. Looks like I will be relying on urgent care for health issues then, or at least I have to find someplace that's farther away.

EDIT2: Well, nowhere else within 25 miles or so seems to have a physician available as a PCP until June or July, so I just scheduled an appointment that I will likely not be around for in hopes that someone else cancels. Even if you have insurance I guess healthcare is a lottery in this fucking country.

Just paid my semester's tuition and... I have more money than I thought I would, I've got an entire extra month's rent compared to what I expected and then some more to cover all my books. I'm starting to feel actually kind of okay being independent? A lot of the worry about if I'd be able to be okay is gone now, replaced, admittedly by other worries, but I feel okay about my situation, even if it's not super secure or the most comfortable, its become livable. Especially since the past few weeks finally gave me my first real break in over a year and I was able to rest a little.

Muddled philosophy brain go brrr.

i have the irresistible urge to be gay AND to do crime... i wonder what that's about

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Had a dream I had an avatar to go out in my place to do stuff for me, felt nice since I didn't have to mask so much only downside was resisting the urge to bunnyhop everywhere to save time

Having to take language classes for my degree might actually break the my horrible procrastination on learning Spanish. Then again, I've always been bad at learning languages and especially speaking them, so it could also just be a way to tank my GPA.

I love you all so much. Thank you for helping me be my best self and finding true happiness 💕💕💕

I've finally started to recover. Still have a cough, throat still feels weird, but my energy is coming back.

Dyed my hair red. It was pretty red, but then I washed it, and it came out a bit more purple-red. Thought this was because I had dyed purple a but ago (it was really faded), but then I realized that the color-preserving conditioner that came with the purple dye might actually have purple dye in it. Color looks really cool though, almost exactly what I had originally expected.

Got a metallic blue nail polish that by itself looks pretty great but I'm no longer content with just one polish so I added another glitter polish on top of it. Thing with glitter polish I feel is that it should really be labeled as more a top coat than anything, imagining just applying the glitter polish on my nails would be pretty underwhelming.

UP WITH TRANS!!!!!!

why is olympic swimming pool a measurement people use. all i know is they're big. i've never swum in one